Confessions of a Sleep Deprived FY Momma

I love this thread.

1) I had several nights of crying while holding both in the early days. I would chant: "shut-up, shut-up, shut-up" with tears rolling down my face
2) They are lucky if their sheets get changed once a week.
3) I absolutely love having twins. And I find myself thinking...at least they are cute, because there are two of them and they are identical, what if they were ugly times two. (At least, I think they are cute).[someone else wrote this, but I think the same thing]
4) I miss my boys during the day, but I enjoy working and getting a break
5) I let their fingernails and toenails get too long sometimes
6) I will go to bed with a dirty kitchen if I am tired
7) I despise all my MIL's advice, even if she is right
8) I get on TS WAY more than I let anyone else know

I know there are more, I will post back as I think of them.

 

I love this thread... Really... Brilliant.

My confessions:

1. Until the babes were 5 mos. old, I used to carefully time bf'ing in the evening and almost RUN to get my beer at 7pm as soon as the feed was done so it would be outta my system by the 10pm feed.

2. On more than one occassion, I still had alcohol in my system when I fed them. Wouldn't have DREAMED of doing this with my first. Ack. So terrible...

3. I'm behind in my shots & doctors appts. for them.

4. They're nearly 7 mos old and we've gone on 3 walks and roughly 7 car outtings. Once a week, I run errands in the evenings when my husband is home so I can have a sanity break. (I also have a daughter, nearly 2 now, who was 17 mos when they were born. Just about lost my mind... And I also work from home, which is why it's so dang difficult.)

5. I'm secretly afraid I'll favor one twin so I find I'm always making excessive efforts to treat them equally.

6. With my first daughter, every milestone was a celebration. With the twins, it's "Oh my god, I didn't know you can do that now!"

7. I was surprised to discover how well they could sit the first time I tried. Ooops. (They spend a lot of time in the jumperoo and exersaucers.)

8. I *love* the exersaucers. I would give away my dog to keep them if forced. MAYBE even my husband.

9. Hubby and I have had "relations" ... wait for it ... ONCE since the babies are born. And frankly, I'm still not interested. I'm desperately hoping this will change when I'm finished breastfeeding.

10. I plan to stop bf'ing at 10 mos. I can't imagine breastfeeding 2 in the heat of summer. So screw it.

11. I'm sooooooo worried I don't stimulate my girls with enough speach, reading, play, and interaction. But I don't know where I'd find more time to do this??????

12. Oh, one more... I am usually covered in spit up, so I often just use my shirt to wipe up their dribbles because, hey, why get something ELSE dirty?! Then I'd have to wash that too. (My wardrobe is so gross now... Ugh!!!)

I love my twins fiercely and wouldn't trade them for the world. And I love that they were unplanned, though awfully close to my daughter. But there are certainly days when I feel completely overwhelmed and lonely. It's so difficult to go out I just don't bother yet. And I still don't believe my husband even fully gets how stressful and busy it can be at times.

Kudos to all you great moms who are loving their babes to one year and beyond.

 

:bump:

Let's hear those confessions!

 

I love this thread..
1. I warmed the twins' formula and now their milk in the microwave in BPA-laden bottles and cups, and I'm not fretting about it.
2. I wash their sheets and bedding once or twice a month
3. I never get out of my jammies until about a half hour before my hubby walks thru the door, and I'm lucky if I shower every other day
4. My emails are all mispelled because I type one-handed while breast feeding
5. I long for a vacation from my family for a couple days
6. I spank, yes... you heard right, I spank my kids when they are disobedient... not for little kid stuff, but for direct and open disobedience. I also yell, way too much, which I highly regret.
7. My kids get whatever vaccinations my doc recommends because I'm too tired and overwhelmed with information to consider any alternative
8. I occaisionally have a nightcap drink in the hopes of my boy sleeping a bit longer after getting a little from my breastmilk (hasn't worked yet, by the way)
9. My kids watch an hour and a half of tv every day so I can get a little peace and quiet
10. I'm way to tired to care about or even consider sex with DH anymore.
11.. As much trouble as they are, I am SO THANKFUL TO GOD FOR MY KIDS and DH, and I tell God that every single day. My life as a Mommy is beyond comparison better than my wildest dreams could have imagined. I never want to do anything else and I want to drop my first career (I'm a speech therapist) like a hot potato.

 

Addendum:
I've forgone telling them to wipe their bottoms or wash hands at times because I'm too rushed to get out or get something else done at the time.
Oh, yeah, and I wipe their boogers and mouths on my shirtsleeves WAY too often.
I know, gross.

 

I love this thread! It has made me feel so much better about the things I do

1. My favorite time of day is when I drop them at daycare in the morning and there are some mornings I know they are poopy when we leave the house and I tell our daycare lady they pooped in the car

2. I never cook for my boys, they get great food at daycare, but at home it is always something from a jar, bag or box that doesn't involve much work for mommy

3. I get VERY irritated that DH thinks he isn't capable of watching them both by himself so that if I want to go somewhere I almost always have at least one of them with me

4. We never put our laundry away....ever.....when I was looking for something the other day I actually found my hospital bag at the bottom of one of the baskets where it has been for the last 9 months

5. I felt a lot of guilt that I gave up on BF. Now I think it was the best decision I ever made and I refuse to feel guilty about it any more

6. Sometimes I go for a whole week before I realize I need to clean out the litter box....our poor kitty sits there and stares at me like I am the worst person in the world

7. I started putting cereal in their bottles at 2 1/2 or 3 months to try to get them to sleep longer at night and it worked

8. I only change their sheets if they have spit up, poop or snot on them

9. I don't like to give them a bath, I usually only do it if they have made a mess of themselves

10. Before I went back to work I only showered a couple times a week. Now I shower maybe 3-4 times a week and sometimes if my hair looks bad I wash it in the sink instead of taking a shower. There have also been some days where I either forgot to brush my teeth or put on deoderant, it sucks, but it happened

11. There are some nights where I put the boys in a bigger size diaper at night, just so they'll sleep longer before they leak

12. Many days the boys live in their pajamas, sometimes I only put clothes on them so that daycare doesn't think I'm lazy

13. I have thrown out nipples and bought new ones because I didn't feel like washing them

14. I have yelled at my boys when they are crying for no reason, I always feel bad about it later, but sometimes I can't help myself

15. I have a really bad potty mouth and so does DH, I'm convinced they'll go to daycare one day and tell the other little kids to shut the f*** up or to eat s*** and bark at the moon since these are our 2 favorite phrases and that their first word will be an inappropriate one

16. I have called in sick to work just so I could drop the boys off at daycare and go back home to sleep

17. I let them lay in their cribs in the morning for almost an hour sometimes babbling at each other so that I can go back to sleep

18. I am secretly glad that they aren't that good at crawling yet so that I can contain them easier

19. I let them sleep on their tummies and have since they were 3 months old. They also sleep with a blanket and a bunch of stuffed animals even though I know they aren't supposed to

20. I stopped using the baby monitor at 6 months because it meant I slept better

 

I put on Baby Einstein and let them watch the whole thing twice as I needed a break to eat my lunch and clean up the kitchen.

I didn't get them dressed at all today and they have food all over their sleepers. I don't care!!!

 

I thought of a couple more

-I don't mind not doing the big deed with DH....there are many days I feel like I could never have it again and be okay with it

-I've given the boys motrin in hopes of getting them to sleep better

 

Sometimes I read these and feel better, but sometimes it's the other way because people are feeling bad about doing something that I didn't think was bad!

 

QUOTE(pinky626 @ Apr 6 2009, 09:01 PM) [snapback]1262072[/snapback]
Omg I can't begin to tell u how much this post has made me feel better! Damn near everything on ur guys' list made me say to myself "yeah,done that..."
My own list to add:
1. Sometimes I'll feed them again just so they'll go to sleep already even tho I know they probably aren't hungry.
2. Sometimes I smoke a cigarette in the guest bathroom just so I can pee at the same time and kill 2 birds with one stone.
3. I miss eating hot food so anytime we are out I hit a drive thru and eat in the car while they are both asleep.
4. I resent my friends for having the freedom to shower whenever they want.
5. By the end of the day I've run out of things to say to them.
6. I put peach schnaupps in my morning oj prettyuch every day between months 2 and 4



oh lord, yes...

1 - i actually started smoking (i know, bad, but outside and just a few a week) when my dh is gone and the boys are asleep just to have some resemblance of 'me' time since i can't leave the house very often
2 - i have my nighttime glass of wine at 4am sometimes when i have to get up to feed them....and then again at 7am with my prozac.
3 - i'm tired of acting like being tired is ok.
4 - i wish my dh would stop pawing at me for sex just b/c my doctor said i'm physically 'ready'.
5 - i didn't brush my teeth yesterday...
6 - i wish i could stop time for just about 3 days and sleep the entire time...