whine fest

it seems alot of us are having a pretty rough week, so i figured i'd add my vent for good measure any of the women at work who have told me being pregnant is wonderful...they lied! i seriously hate it. i dont hate my babies and i want them to cook for as long as possible, but i cant stand it. i used to be super active, high energy, nothing stopped me..NOW...rolling over in bed is a task in itself, and im only 20wks! i was still working 40hrs a week and when i was having what i would consider contractions every 2-4min i decided it might be time to cut back. im not positive what im feeling. ive never been pregnant, and im nervous but i dont wanna make a fuss about nothing. the "contractions" i was having, probably BHs were slightly uncomfy and my stomach would get hard as a rock, then ease up again. i guess theyre BHs but i really dont know. now im crampy and my lower back hurts something fierce. i went to the doc and told him everything ive been feeling, so he checked, cervix is still closed and hard. he also swabbed for amniotic fluid to make sure nothing was leaking? who knows. so i have today off, and i gotta work 5-11pm tomorrow, and then off for 2days. joy oh joy. boss asked if i wanted to be on the schedule she was making for 3 weeks from now and i told her no, so at most, i'll be working another 3 weeks. doc did sign my leave of absense papers, so i can pretty much be done whenever i want now. since he said everything is the way it should be im gonna continue working i guess? i have nothing else to do all day. oh and to make matters worse, DH won't be home when the babies are born. isnt that loveeeely? yea, i did my crying, but i suppose crying doesnt change anything? he'll be in bootcamp playing with guns, lucky him. im being mean, i know he's really upset he's going to miss it, but i know he's doing it for all of us, me, babies and him. guess i should be grateful to have a man that wants to provide for me, and wants me to be able to enjoy being a mother instead of having to rush back to work because money is short. he really is wonderful. ugh so everything hurts and if it's this bad at 20wks, holy crap is it gonna get tons worse? im seriously just whining and having a rough few days, i gotta get outta this funk. well if you made it this far, thanks for reading i do feel a lil better

 

:hug99: I know what you mean about rolling over in bed!! I hope you find some ways for comfort!! :hug99:

 

Im sorry. I remember to well what you are going thru and how miserable it is. But hang in there. My babies are 2 monthes tomorow. The first time you get to hold them makes up for the nine monthes of worry. If you can go take a warm relaxing bath. I think i lived in the tub the whole time. GL.

 

Sorry to here that you are going through all of this so early. Just think, you will forget anout this once you hold your precious gems in your hand.

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it seems alot of us are having a pretty rough week, so i figured i'd add my vent for good measure any of the women at work who have told me being pregnant is wonderful...they lied! i seriously hate it. i dont hate my babies and i want them to cook for as long as possible, but i cant stand it. i used to be super active, high energy, nothing stopped me..NOW...rolling over in bed is a task in itself, and im only 20wks! i was still working 40hrs a week and when i was having what i would consider contractions every 2-4min i decided it might be time to cut back. im not positive what im feeling. ive never been pregnant, and im nervous but i dont wanna make a fuss about nothing. the "contractions" i was having, probably BHs were slightly uncomfy and my stomach would get hard as a rock, then ease up again. i guess theyre BHs but i really dont know. now im crampy and my lower back hurts something fierce. i went to the doc and told him everything ive been feeling, so he checked, cervix is still closed and hard. he also swabbed for amniotic fluid to make sure nothing was leaking? who knows. so i have today off, and i gotta work 5-11pm tomorrow, and then off for 2days. joy oh joy. boss asked if i wanted to be on the schedule she was making for 3 weeks from now and i told her no, so at most, i'll be working another 3 weeks. doc did sign my leave of absense papers, so i can pretty much be done whenever i want now. since he said everything is the way it should be im gonna continue working i guess? i have nothing else to do all day. oh and to make matters worse, DH won't be home when the babies are born. isnt that loveeeely? yea, i did my crying, but i suppose crying doesnt change anything? he'll be in bootcamp playing with guns, lucky him. im being mean, i know he's really upset he's going to miss it, but i know he's doing it for all of us, me, babies and him. guess i should be grateful to have a man that wants to provide for me, and wants me to be able to enjoy being a mother instead of having to rush back to work because money is short. he really is wonderful. ugh so everything hurts and if it's this bad at 20wks, holy crap is it gonna get tons worse? im seriously just whining and having a rough few days, i gotta get outta this funk. well if you made it this far, thanks for reading i do feel a lil better

 

Hang in there. :hug99:

 

You are entitled to whine and complain. Not only are you uncomfortable, but now you are facing the birth of your twins without your husband. That SUCKS! While I do find what he is doing for your family commendable, I wish he could delay a bit. Hang in there. I know how you feel, Lisa

 

blah thanks all you wonderful, sweet ladies. i know the situation could be 10x worse, but you all know how i feel im sure. some days you just gotta let it all out :wacko:

 

I know what you mean. It is normal to get to the point of "I can't take it anymore." Feel better soon.

 

I was thinking the same way you are now when I was at 20 weeks. i wondered how much worse it could get. I have some good news in my circumstance. I felt better from weeks 24 to 28 than I did in weeks 20 to 24. It is now getting worse again but there is always some days that are not as bad as others. :hug99: you'll get through it..venting is just part of the process of dealing with it all.