*UPDATE* Headed Home

Well, I've tried to talk things out with DH, but we've both come to the conclusion that it would be best for me to just go home and stay with family for awhile until after the babies are born. I'm soooo devastated. He just can't get over the fact that I can't trust him, and neither can I. I still love him and wish things would work out in the end, but I am just so unhopeful after all of this. His problems with PTSD have overtaken his life. I have done everything I can to help him, and now it's up to him. My family has been very supportive and kind through all this, thankfully. At least I'll be able to spend some much needed time with them.

I can't stop crying, thinking about what could have been. Now I'm going to go finish packing and leave my life here in Alabama behind for my hometown in the Pacific Northwest. Please pray for my strength emotionally and physically as I make this long trip with my son and babies in the belly. I just don't know how I'm going to make it through the next 6 months without DH.

Also, please pray for our nation's soldiers and families affected by Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. It is very real. Especially those who were "ground troops" like my husband. They have had to suffer SO much for this nation. I only wish that everyone understood and appreciated the depth of their sacrifice. Many have given everything they have to the Army, like us.

 

Oh, honey...


Good luck. You guys will be in my prayers.

 

Erin, I am so sorry that you are going through this. Please know that you're in my prayers. It sound like you're very blessed to have a wonderful and supportive family so hopefully that will be of great comfort once you get to them. Please take care of yourself and your little ones.

 

:hug99: Oh honey... I hope the time is what he needs! I hope this isn't the beginning of the end! :hug99: PLEASE keep us updated!

 

I am so sorry to read this. May you and the children have a safe trip to the Pacific Northwest. I hope that time is all this will need. PSTD is devestating and with the war going on right, there is just not enough support for what our soliders go through. Many blessings and keep us updated. :hug99:

 

I am praying for you and your family. When are you leaving?

 

:hug99: Oh, Erin honey, I hope that this time is something that will help the two of you. I am so glad that you have a supportive family to help you through this terrible time. We are here for you, too. :hug99:

 

I am so sorry you have to go through this, it is bad anytime, but now especially. I think you going home is a good decision, and I am so glad that you have family to support you through all of this! Hang in there, and hopefully he will come around with some time to himself, and some time to think about things he has done :hug99:

 

i'll be praying for you and your babies :hug99: have a safe trip back home and when you get there, just relax and take care of yourself and your boys.

 

I'm glad you have family who is going to help you. I'm sorry you are going through this :hug99: .

 

I just wanted to add my prayers to the others. I'm sorry you're going through such a difficult time. I'm glad you have family to support you through it. Please take good care of yourself.

:love0028:

 

Erin, I have and will continue to pray for you all. God does have a plan for you. Please be very careful on your trip home. and Keep us all posted on how you are doing. Feel free to PM me if you ever just need to talk.


Missy

 

I'm so glad you have a family to go to that supports your decision! Good luck with your move and be safe. I am praying for you!

 

Erin, I am so sorry that you are having to go through this. My prayers are with you. And please have a safe trip. :hug99:

Cari

 

I dont even know what to say. I just want to reach through the computer and give you a hug :hug99: God wouldnt give you what he didn't think you could handle. You are going to make it through this! I will keep you and your little ones on my thoughts and prayers.

 

Im so sorry!!! :love0028: :love0028: :love0028:
You and your family will be in my thoughts!

 

You, your husband, your son, and your babies are all in my prayers. Just remember that there are no problems too big for the Lord to work through. My husband and I discovered this a couple years ago ourselves. I'm glad you have family to support you and I really hope that everything works out okay in the end for your marriage. Try not to overdo it on the packing and everything in getting ready to leave. Take good care of yourself and have a safe trip.

 

Oh Erin, I am so sorry you are having to go through this. :hug99: I am glad you have family to stay with. Good luck on the trip home. :hug99:

 

:hug99: I'm so sad for you that you are dealing with this. PTSD is so real and just bites. I'll pray that he can work through this. I'll also pray your trip is uneventful and that you are able to be OK through all this. And thanks to your dh and everyone else who sacrafice so much for the rest of us. It is appreciated daily in all we are able to do!

 

hugs to you. what a horrible thing to deal with, and bad timing to boot.

i'm thinking of you,
jenny

 

I'm so sorry to read you are going through this......I hope you have a safe and uneventful trip home and that everything works out for the best. :hug99:

 

I'm so sorry things couldn't be worked out.
I am glad your family is there to supoort you.

 

Take care of yourself....and remember right now, with things going the way they are at home...you are making the best (and probably the hardest) decision for your children. I hope you have a safe trip.

 

I am so very sorry for all that you are having to go through! I just wanted to add that I think you are an incredilby strong and brave woman for doing whatever is necessary to ensure you & your children's happiness! I will pray that you have a safe trip 'home' and are greeted with the huge hugs that you so deserve! :hug99:

 

Erin,

I am so sorry that you are going through this. I will tell you that my husband was in the military and was discharged just before 9/11. I thank God for that every day. He was 82nd airborne and I know he would have definately gone to Iraq. When I think of your situation I think of how much different my husband's, daughter's, and own life would be had he re enlisted.

My heart breaks for you and for your husband as you both go through this stressful time. It really angers me to think that our Military does not do more for the men and women who serve our country as they return and are suffering from PTSD as well as other physical and pshychological challenges. We ask so much of our military families and offer so little in return.

I will be praying for you and your babies as you make your way home to your family. I know that they will care for you and help you through this troubled time in your life. I will also pray for your husband and hope that he begins to recover from his pain. I know that he has hurt you, and he I am sure knows this too. Perhaps once he begins healing he will be better able emotionally to work things out with you if that is something you want.

In the mean time, take care of yourself and your babies. Do what you need to do in order to heal yourself and provide the best possible life for your little ones. :hug99:

 

Erin, I am so sorry! :hug99:

I am so glad your family is so supportive of you and have a place to go. Anywhere near me? (Portland)

I hope that he is able to get some hlepful counseling.

 

I am just so sorry to hear that you have been put in a situation where you are having to make these choices. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family.

 

Erin, my heart goes out to you. I'm sorry you have to endure this now, but what strength you are demonstrating! Your family is very blessed to have you as a mother. Please hang in there and let us know that you got there safely! :hug99:

 

I'll be praying for you and your babies. Have a safe trip Erin. :hug99: :love0028: :hug99:

 

Good luck to you!

 

I made it safely, and have finally settled in and gotten my computer set up. It is SO odd to be living in my parent's basement, but I'm just glad to be somewhere safe where my family cares about me. I'm very thankful that we've finally made it and now I can focus on my children for awhile and my faith. Thankfully, both DH's family and mine have been very supportive and helpful. I'm still praying for a reconciliation, but I can't control the way DH feels. He has to continue to go to counseling and heal.

Thank you for all of your prayers and well wishes. It is helping me to get through the most difficult time in my life thus far.

But, thankfully, I HAVE MADE IT TO 32 weeks with no incident!!! YAY!!!!

 

Erin, it is good to hear from you. I am glad that you have support from both sides of the family. That will help you out tremendously. 32 weeks that is quite exciting.....Please keep praying...and know that we are here for you as well.


Missy

 

I am glad to hear that you made it safely. I will pray for a reconciliation for you as well. I know that there is a long road of healing ahead of you, but it is good to know you are in a safe place where the healing process can begin. Good luck to you and congratulation on 32 weeks!!!

 

Im so glad that you and your babies made it safely without incident. Im still praying for you and your family. Keep your head up!

 

I'm glad you have the support you need from both families.
Yay for 32 wks!!