Tears at the Dr.'s office

Well, first of all, the girls are doing just fine! Fluids looked good on ultrasound, etc. and they did good on the NST. I've been having increasing pain with the sebacious cyst on my leg, but there was nothing more my peri could do about it right now. I'm trying to get up and walk more now, but it gets painful because of the cyst. The last couple days it seemed like I was having more frequent contractions, especially in the evening. Well, he checked my cervix and it's still closed and thick. I couldn't quite hold my tears back before he left the room. At least he seemed compassionate. We had talked about induction and he agreed to do an amnio to check the girls lungs in a week (I'll be 37 wks. 3 days). He doesn't like to induce if the cervix is still closed so I'm hoping we'll make some kind of progress there. I really thought that maybe the full moon and our recent rainy/stormy weather would bring on REAL labor, but it hasn't. It's not even that I can't take the uncomfortableness....it's more that I'm worried something would happen to my girls before they have a chance to be born...I guess just because of my past losses. I settled myself down so we could leave, but our nurse started talking to me before we got a chance to leave and the tears came pouring again. She was Sooooo sweet about it though. DH and I went to the mall afterwards and I tried to walk but could only do so much, so we had to use a wheelchair too. I felt like everyone was staring at me, but I don't care. Shopping always cheers me up some, even if I really shouldn't be spending money.

Please pray that our girls would continue to stay safe until they can come out...and that we would be patient.

 

:hug99: bless your heart!! you are in my thoughts and prayers!!! :hug99:

Heather

 

aw, I'm sorry you had a rough day :hug99: You're babies will come when they are ready and they will be healthy and beautiful. You're almost to the end and you've done a fantastic job carrying them.

 

Prayers are with you dear

I read your story today, and my thoughts are with you. I cannot blame you for your fears. I have no idea what you went through. I just know that my fears are sooo much higher with this pregnancy due to taking 4 yrs to get here, and it being a twin pregnancy.

I hope you start dialating this week. We worry so much about PTL and dialating early, and here you have nothing. I would be crying too!!!!! Here is to dialation of your cervix :drinks:

 

Big Hugs coming your way!! I haven't gone through what you have but I did lose 2 babies last year by miscarriage. I completely understand the need to have your babies here safe and sound in your arms. I'm just now starting to feel like I might actually get to keep my boys. And about the wheelchair... I've been on complete bedrest due to preterm ctx's, but needed clothing. So I had to get the wheelchair at the mall too. So embarrassing, but it feels so good to be out of the house. I hope the pain subsides very soon after birth. I'm so sorry this has been so difficult for you. But when you finally get those babies in your arms, it will all be worth it. :hug99:

 

:hug99: I saw that you read my post so you know what's going on with me. I wish I knew what to say, I know how frustrating all this uncertainty is. I am driving myself crazy. Every doctor has thier own approach so it is practically worthless to compare what one says to another. The important thing is that you trust your doctor and that you have expressed all your concerns and discussed all of your options thoroughly with him. I know I have had to ask a million questions and I am still very unsure. The only thing that put my mind at ease is that my ob told me that if the induction was not going well in anyway I could change my mind and they would do a c/s. It might be good that you still don't know exactly how it's going to happen because now that I know every minute seems like an hour I am obsessed!!! I hope you just go on your own that would be a beautiful thing. Either way we're going to have our babies any time now :yahoo: Just trust that your girls are going to be healthy and perfect.

BTW my cervix is still on total lockdown too not even 1cm today.

 

You have been down a long rough road. You are almost at the end of it and the joy of meeting your precious babies will soon be with you!!!! Congrats on your journey!!!

 

Hope that you are doing better today. I understand your being nervous. I'll be thinking of you.

 

i can't believe she would bother checking lungs at 37 weeks! Even if they are little less mature they will still be fine... Well, my advice... walk if you can... and get busy with dh if you can!! So embarrassing...but this is what got my ctx started with my first dd... apparently something in the sperm really irritates your cervix... can your doctor give you a rough internal???... my doc did this wiht my first dd too, and that got things going even more...three hours later my water broke... I can't imagine them making you wait past 38 weeks with id. twins... Hope your water just pops on you one of these days!!!

 

Melissa,

I am definitly thinking of you and hope you are having a better day today. I know I am always a bit blue after my peri appts. Even if things are great and the babies are doing great there always seems to be some sort of sadness. We are just so anxious to meet our babies and it is hard to let go of expectations that never seem to come to fruition at the appts.

Amy

 

Melissa...I wish we could all just hug you! But since we can't, know that your in my thoughts and prayers and that I am so excited for the day you can come back and post your birth story and introduce your beautiful healthy daughters!

 

Milissa,

I pray that God's peace will surround you as a shield. That that cyst will clear up & cause you no more pain & discomfort.

Take joy in the FACT that your little girls are doing well!!

Also, just give all your fears, anxieties & worries to God. Give it to Him & don't take them back. I do realise I'm talking to myself here too, as it's so easy to stress.

Believe, put your faith in the God that blessed you with these two beautiful girls..What He has started, he will finish!

I stand with you in Faith that ALL things are possible with God who loves us.

 

My prayers are with you! Try not to stress yourself out too much and just think that everything will be okay. I know it must be uncomfortable to be so far along, but it might be good for your girls. :hug99:

 

Melissa,
I am so sorry for your emotional day. It has been a long road, and I can't imagine how ready you are to meet your girls. I am praying for you to be surrounded by God's love and peace in the coming week(s).

I can't imagine your worry about something happening before they get here given all you've been through, just try to put it in perspective. Once they are here, our old worries get replaced by brand new ones; but it is ALL in God's hands.

Take care,
Jen

 

I am thinking about you.....I know you've had such a rough time of it, and I can't even imagine how hard the waiting must be for you....

Praying that you will find some peace in these last few days, and that your beautiful girls arrive perfect and healthy and SOON! Hugs to you!

 

You need a big :hug99: ! Everything will be ok. You don't have too much longer to go. I can't imagine how I will feel when I am as far along as you. I am already so uncomfortable. I also find myself in tears :cray:. I guess mine is due to hormones. DH also wanted to push me in a wheelchair earlier this week when we went shopping, but I would not let him because I felt like you. I thought everyone would be looking at me. I guess I need to suck it up and take the ride. I noticed that Walgreens has a wheelchair in their sale paper for $150. I feel like I need it just to get from the bed to the bathroom most of the time. Anyhow, I hope you feel better soon. Just remember your baby girls will be healthy and here soon! :give_rose:

 

:hug99: to you!

I hope the girls come soon. Just because your cervix was colsed doesn't mean the girls can't decide tocome tomorrow.

I will send you (((((((labor vibes))))))))

 

I can not tell you the number of times I cried at the Dr.s office (and the mall, the grocery store, in my principals office, my co-workers office, in the shower...well you get it).

They are trained to deal with the emotions of crazy hormonal women ( I never felt more crazy than when I was pg) so just be glad you were able to get at least some of it our of your system.

I only made it to 36 weeks, and could barely move them, so even if I weren't on bedrest, I have no idea how you are up and walking...cyst or not.

 

Wow!!! Thanks so much for all the encouraging replies. It's a tough 'place' to be in, but we are resting in the fact that God is trustworthy and in control of all these details. Hopefully my cervix will at least do something this next week so the dr.will be more likely to agree to an induction. If you knew me when I was pregnant/had my DD, you wouldn't think I'd be so eager to get these girls out. I actually wanted a homebirth with DD (although it didn't work out). I'm all about the natural way of doing things, but this is a totally different situation...so it's humbling in many ways. Anyway, thanks for all the hugs and support!