Really need support!

Ok, I know this may sound silly...

I'm 30wks and 1day! And through the majority of this pregnancy I haven't really worried about anything.
In the early stages, I figured there is nothing anyone can do if I miscarry, and later on, it was chances the baby won't survive if born were so slip, I let whatever may be...may be...

But for some reason NOW...I am TERRIFIED of delivering early!! T-E-R-R-I-F-I-E-D!
THere is no reason that I'm aware of, I'm not having contractions, or bleeding etc.

I am getting really uncomfortable though. 2wks ago at my last u/s (28wks) both babies were 3lbs each. I have been diagnosed with glucose intolerance which I'm managing with diet, that seems to be going well. I seem to have more energy. I've only gained 27lbs as of yesterday.

I don't know where this is coming from, but I'm back to 'checking' when I go pee to make sure no blood, etc...

When I think of 'going into labor', I totally tear up!
I don't know why I"m so scared right now...there really is no reason! I've had a complication free pregnancy...

Can ANYONE clue me in to why I'm feeling this way??? Or if anyone else has felt this way...it's soooo cofusing!

I really appreciate it!!
reb

 

can i just add this is sooo normal! especially when you are nearing the end of your pregnancy its a mix feeling of total fear and anxiety and joy all in one--once you have your babies a whole new chapter will begin! enjoy your last few weeks and good pg!

 

Yes! I think this fear came in much earlier for me (since I'm only 28 weeks) but I feel and think the same way too, so much so I've been having weird dreams (see one of the post of weird dreams) and with every kicks (or no kick at all), I'll be thinking of the worst and calling my hubby at work that something's wrong!!

 

I'm sorry you're so terrified. :hug: I think it's pretty normal. I think it just means we're getting close to the end and reality is setting in! I am freaking out about if they come early, etc... but I think I feel a little more reassured because one of my best friends had triplets at 30 1/2 weeks (she said that 1/2 is really important ) and they are adorable 4 year olds now doing great. Saying that, I wouldn't want to have my little ones anytime in the next few weeks. I will feel SO much better when I get to 34 weeks and even better at 36 but I've seen a few premies in person and I see them now. My other best friend had her little girl at 33 weeks and she's a little firecracker. I also think that our hormones are starting to rev up again. I have found myself more "teary" lately. I've also noticed my boobs are starting to hurt again which kind of freaks me out thinking that it's getting close. I just say take it easy, put your feet up, drink lots of water and know that you are doing all you can do to keep them in there. :hug:

 

What do you mean scared for no good reason.....
You should be scared, and nervous, and happy and all of those things. This is such an unknown time for you - you've never been through it before. But look at the strength you already have, and know it will get you through....
And we are here to help :grouphug:

 

Yep! You're normal. I'm terrified, nervous, ecstatic and so anxious in any given day. I feel like I'm going to be pregnant forever but on the other hand, I want them to stay in there until the doc says otherwise.

It's like no other experience in this world!

 

Hormones! :hug: Take care of yourself and vent to us when you need to!

 

have you heard of Hormones?? Well, they can make the most secure person worried. Labor and the health of our children are very emotional things. Just know this is a normal thing and try not to let it control you. Hang in there. You are doing great.

 

QUOTE(JicJac @ Oct 9 2008, 11:45 AM) [snapback]1019203[/snapback]
Hormones!


:good: That was going to be my answer too! :hug:'s Rebecca. I definately think it's a normal thing to go through. I was terrified as well up until the day I had them! I hope you can find a way to not stress about it to much and enjoy it as much as you can. :hug:

 

I just wanted to thank you all for your support, I'm feeling MUCH better now! Truly your encouragement is invaluable!

THANK YOU!!! :grouphug:

reb

 

Everything about these twin pregnancies can be nerve-wracking! I was actually MORE scared before I hit the 30 week mark and then I started to relax since the chances of them doing well after that were better.... now I can't seem to will them to come out!!! I'm glad you are feeling better about everything and hope you enjoy the rest of your pregnancy
jen

 

[SIZE=10pt] :hug: Rebecca!!

You're completely normal. I think we all go through these emotions...many times Hitting that 30 week mark is AWESOME!! You're doing great. All your emotions are overlapping each other now. Excitement, worry, anxious, exhaustion, etc. = HORMONES Aren't they great

Thinking of you!!

April [/SIZE]

 

Hormones, hormones, hormones. God gave them to us to make us fiercely protect those babies as long as we can. If you are like me, you are just beginning to believe you might have twins that will actually survive. That was a overwhelming hope. It still brings me to tears.

You're doing a great job, MAMA! It's when they are about to turn two and you are STILL crying every time you think about all the pregnancy risks that you know you are an emotional basketcase. (Yup, I'm there....)

 

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Hormones, hormones, hormones. God gave them to us to make us fiercely protect those babies as long as we can. If you are like me, you are just beginning to believe you might have twins that will actually survive. That was a overwhelming hope. It still brings me to tears.

You're doing a great job, MAMA! It's when they are about to turn two and you are STILL crying every time you think about all the pregnancy risks that you know you are an emotional basketcase. (Yup, I'm there....)

I think you're exactly right. Each week I think to myself, wow, I made it another week and managed not to lose these babies. I keep watching Hardinfamilytwins because she's 5 weeks ahead of me and thinking, "in five weeks, that will be me." I'm not sure at what point it will kick in and I'll believe that they're truly going to be in my arms on December 21st (my c/s date), but I'm not there yet.

Don't get me wrong, I love my girls already and I'm not thinking the worst every day...it's just not "real" yet.

 

QUOTE(MamaKimberlee @ Oct 9 2008, 08:07 PM) [snapback]1019767[/snapback]
If you are like me, you are just beginning to believe you might have twins that will actually survive. That was a overwhelming hope. It still brings me to tears.



You know...that is EXACTLY EXACTLY what I"m feeling and haven't been able to articulate it! Thank you! I'm starting to think this may actually happen.

Thank you all again for your support, you have no idea how validating your kind words have been for me...I slept much better last night!! :laughing:

reb