ok I'm not sure if this is what's wrong but I'm starting to wonder if I'm not experiencing Post pardum depression or maybe it's my birth control....but I'm just so easily upset lately, I feel nervous and just worthless. I feel like I can't even take care of my babies alone....I mean used to I didn't need anyone around to help me I could do it by myself and lately it's like I'm just almost in a panic if I'm left alone like "oh no what do I do" I know I can take care of my babies alone heck I've done it since they were born....but I just don't know why I'm feeling this way..I cry at a drop of a hat and I just want to be alone and just cry it out....I get to the point that I feel no one cares.....has anyone else experienced this??? The bad part is I see it but I can't seem to stop it or even know why I feel this way.....I'm thinking of talking to my Dr about it.
It's a good idea to talk to you doctor. You are not alone- many peopel feel the same way. Can you have a friend or family member come over to visit? I used to have a friend come over every Tuesday. It gave me something to look foward to. Also, as hard as it can be, I planned a little outing everyday. Being a new twin mom can be isolating! Sometiime I would just pack my lunch and a magazine. I would put the babies in the car and drive until they fell asleep Then park, eat lucn (in peace!) read and relax. Good luck!
Thanks I actually work all day so I do get out and I should be thrilled to get home but to top it off my babies have cloic every day 5-8 PM and I just get overwhelmed and I hate that I can't comfort them all the time.....But I will talk to my Dr soon.
I'm sorry you are feeling this way! :hug: It is completely normal, especially with twins. I felt pretty awful for a few months. I had great days too, but on the days that were bad I felt as if things would never get better. Definitely talk to your Dr. and let everyone here on TS help you out! Sunshine, fresh air, exercise, and talking to my husband and friends helped me the most.
I suffered from PPD after my twins were born in May. I did not feel that way when my 5 year old was born so I was not expecting the feelings that hit me at all. I also felt like I could not be alone with my babies, I would lay awake at night (even though totally sleep deprived) and not be able to sleep because I could not "shut off" all the worries swirling around in my head. I was scared to be alone with the babies, I didn't want the babies, I never felt like I would hurt them (thank goodness, some women w/PPD feel that way), but I felt like I was not capable of taking care of them and didn't want to, thought I had made a huge mistake by trying to get pregnant again, I cried ALL the time, often multiple times a day, I felt guilty for having all these negative feelings, my family was very worried abuot me, those were some of the darkest days of my life........I asked for help from my doctor and things are soooooo much better, the "dark days" now seem like such a long time ago. I am often alone with the babies since my husband is a firefighter and I do not panic or cry..... I would recommend talking to your doctor and hang in there, you will get through it!
ditto pp's, talk to your doc and maybe he/she will offer some meds to help you get over the hump. i have battled depression for the past 10 yrs, and quit taking my meds during the pregnancy. i know i was definitely dealing with PPD even though i started back on my meds after my delivery. the first 2 months were the worst but i still deal with daily feelings of inadequacy as a mother, for not being able to spend enough time with both of my girls and having to work fulltime, and for needing my parents to help me take care of them since i'm a single mom, etc etc the list goes on. the depression has improved since i took the plunge and put them in a home daycare to give my mom a break during the day cuz she works at home. so when i pick them up after work, nobody is as stressed as we used to be. but everybody tells me that just becoming a mom brings feelings of guilt and inadequacy... forever! sigh... hugs to you and i hope you're feeling better soon!
I would for sure call and talk to your doctor about it. I called my doctor when my twins were about 6 months old because I wasn't "adjusting" like I thought I should and I was feeling anxious and frustrated all the time. I was jealous and resentful that my husband went off to work each day and I had to stay at home and try to take care of two babies and I felt like I was a terrible mother and couldn't do anything right. I chose to start taking some medication and I can't tell you how amazing the change was. I feel great- hugs, I hope you start feeling better.
you don't know how happy I am to read I'm not the only one that feels this way.....I don't feel like I would hurt my babies ever....but I get where I just dread coming home....I mean I'm gona all day I should be extatic to come home to see them but I think at times maybe I had 2 MC's before them for a reason maybe God was trying to tell my I wasn't cut out for it.....I do love my babies so much but I just feel like I can't do it alone.....and DH is self employeed so I'm alone alot but instead of staying home I'm ready to just jump in the car and go to my In laws so my MIL will help....I don't need help I know that but I just get so nervous......but I am going to call my Dr cause I want to be a better mother and feel like I can do this and be ok.
Thanks for posting and replying to this topic. After reading your posts, I've decided it's time for me to go to the doctor too. I knew I was at high-risk for PPD (due to own history, family history, having multiples), but was sure I had 'dodged the bullet' since my babes are 5 months. But, I'm just too angry all the time, and my babes (nor my husband) don't deserve that. So I have an appointment Monday. Thanks ladies.
Brandy, If you need someone to talk to, give me a call. I will send you my number in PM. I don't know if you have free long distance like I do, but if you don't let me know. I will be more than happy to call you back. I DS #1 had colic. I know how exhausting that can be. I am soo sorry that you are having to deal with it double. You are a strong woman to be able to do it! I had ppd after the babies were born and it seemed to get better and then all of a sudden around 3 months it hit me again. This may be happening to you. I am only about an hour away... so maybe we can get together. Definately talk to dr. :hug:
