Ive been struggling for awhile but Im one of those stubborn ones. My doc tried to give me a prescription for something awhile back but being stubborn I said no. Alot of you know what has been going on....all preemie kids, loss of our first daughter, marriage and IL probs, moving cross country, dh about to be out of a job. So yeah I have a lot of stress in my life, which I think I have handled pretty well so far. Now I have no patience, I dont know if maybe the pill has something to do with it or the fact that my son is a pain in the butt sometimes. I yell at him too much, he wont listen any other way, I hate that I do that, I really, really, really do but sometimes I just cant help it. Im so confused, not sure if this is PTSD from Kaitlyns death, PPD from the twins birth or just normal stuff. And no I have not gone to talk to anyone, I did start going to a grief group but the last several months meetings have been canceled and now of course I moved. so who do I talk to?? or do I just suck it up and wait for things to calm down?? I havent even set up a doctor yet...and then there is the concern that at the end of the Jan we will lose our income, home and insurance as dh gets out of the military...what if they put me on something and then I have no insurance and cannot get it (we wont be able to afford getting prescriptions other than the kids...all the money will go towards synagis for the girls). I just dont know, what do you all think?
Ive been struggling for awhile but Im one of those stubborn ones. My doc tried to give me a prescription for something awhile back but being stubborn I said no. Alot of you know what has been going on....all preemie kids, loss of our first daughter, marriage and IL probs, moving cross country, dh about to be out of a job. So yeah I have a lot of stress in my life, which I think I have handled pretty well so far. Now I have no patience, I dont know if maybe the pill has something to do with it or the fact that my son is a pain in the butt sometimes. I yell at him too much, he wont listen any other way, I hate that I do that, I really, really, really do but sometimes I just cant help it. Im so confused, not sure if this is PTSD from Kaitlyns death, PPD from the twins birth or just normal stuff. And no I have not gone to talk to anyone, I did start going to a grief group but the last several months meetings have been canceled and now of course I moved. so who do I talk to?? or do I just suck it up and wait for things to calm down?? I havent even set up a doctor yet...and then there is the concern that at the end of the Jan we will lose our income, home and insurance as dh gets out of the military...what if they put me on something and then I have no insurance and cannot get it (we wont be able to afford getting prescriptions other than the kids...all the money will go towards synagis for the girls). I just dont know, what do you all think?
You might be depressed, but not PPD persay, you can try calling your local health department, they would be able to refer you to someone who can help. They might have free or low cost counseling. I hope things get better for you!
If you are looking for something free I would try planned parenthood. They might be able to help for PPD for free. Good Luck, I know you have had a lot of stress in your life the last couple of months.
I wish I could give you a hug You have so much going on right now, that has to be part of it. I agree with pp about calling the health department. They are usually hooked up to a community mental health which can give free care when your insurance runs out. Plus, have you looked into medicaid for the kids? At least when your husband gets out of the military? We lost our first baby later in the pregnancy (not as late as your little girl but late enough to where we weren't prepared for it) and I had really bad depression after our next child was born. All I could think about was the loss of our first baby. I don't know if it was PPD or something else, but it sure did hurt. Please PM me if you want to talk at all. As far as losing temper with your older child, I am so there. My four year old drives me NUTS! Plus, the four year old and six year old fight all the time. It has come to the point when they start fighting I send them to their rooms for the rest of the night, which means they spend most of the nights in their rooms! Angel
Cassie- You are going through so much right now. I don't havbe too many answers. I would however use us here at TS whenever you need to. A truly great source of support. Hugs
Cassie- I know things are really rough on you right now . I think you should look into getting some kind of support (medically) right away. Use your Tricare while you have it. After DH processes out you can look into MediCal or Healthy Families (hope I put the link in right.) Even if YOU don't qualify (I don't know if you will or not, just know it's easier to get kids on than it is adults), the kids probably will and that would free up some $ so you might be able to see a Dr. As far as the meds go, you could try PPA (Partnership for Prescription Assistance); you know, the Montel Williams commercials with the big bus. Their phone number is 888-477-2669. You can have them send an application and wait til after DH is processed out to fill it out. If I think of anything else I'll PM you. You are always in my prayers. Christina
I'm so sorry you are going through all of this, I'm sorry but I don't have much information to offer other than what you have gotten so far. If you ever need to talk pm me.
Another suggestion in addition to the previous ones, maybe you can try talking to a chaplin. That's free, right? Maybe just talking to someone is all you need.
You have so much stress going on how could you not be having a hard time with it but like you said you have done pretty well so far and deserve a big kudos! With that being said it can't hurt to talk to someone and maybe take some meds for a couple of months if they think you might benefit from them. I know what you mean about being stubborn, I was too embarassed to ask for anything from my doc and kept thinking it would pass and has a bit but I still have my very bad days. I hope you can get some help, sending you hugs!
Cassie, it breaks my heart all you are going through right now. I wish I could be there to give you a big hug and shoulder to cry on so here is my We have been going through some similar issues of $$$, marriage, insurance and Christina basically wrote all the ideas I had to tell you about. The kids and I have been on Medicaid since last March when Dh lost his job the first time. In October he was eligible for insurance through his work but it was $670 a month (which we obviously couldn't afford), so Medicard (MassHealth) actually helped us by paying 75% of that premium. Now with DH out of work, they are paying for our entire COBRA amount ($850 a month!). Obviously it will be temporary til DH gets another job or I start teaching in the fall. Definitely look into it, you and the kids will at least qualify. I also think you are depressed (maybe not PPD) and there is a loads of free help out there. I would look into talking to someone. Oh and I yell at my 4 year old all the time. He drives me up a wall some days. Its not your fault. They are toddlers and preschoolers and they have minimal listening skills, which can get really old week after week after week
