Ok I have official admitted I have PPD. I'm paranoid about my daughter being behind. She can't hold head up , seems weak compared to other babies still in newborn clothes, looks very small even though she is 11lb. I can't sleep, can't function at my job feeling terribly overwhelmed. I know we are not compare to babies but I have two and my son looks so different and he is doing everything a three month is suppose to do. I know I'm driving myself crazy because every doctor she has gone to says she is fine. I think I'm losing it because she had a seizure last week but she is fine and they did a Ct scan and everything came back normal. I just can't accept because she looks so different than every other baby. I know I'm rambling going to doctor for some happy pills on friday to take away anixiety. I will say this she is cooing and smiling. I guess I just don't know what to about this situation. I love her but I'm having a hard time accepting she is fine. Please tell i'm not the only parent who is driving themselves crazy by comparing babies.
:hug: to you. It is really hard having twins and comparing them is totally natural. I did/do it all the time though less now. I worried myself sick all the time too. Is there anyone who can help you out at all? Family? Friends? Neighbours? Just so you can get some time for yourself to go out, sleep or whatever. Dont feel bad about this as I still need me time. Having twins is exhausting. Remember you are not alone in this and I think you are being very brave to go to see the doctor and ask for help. I hope you can get some days off work also. Please stay here and keep usposted with how you get on. Remember, you are doing a great job, you are a fabulous mum and your LOs are doing great. :hug:
:hug: I'm sorry you are experiencing PPA/D. I'm glad that you are seeing your doctor. As far as your daughter goes, go with your gut. If you aren't happy with a first(second, third) opinion, have her reevaluated with another doctor. Did they say why she had the seizure? :grouphug:
:hug: Yep, definitely trust your instincts. I would find someone who is willing to listen to your concerns again. You are definitely not the only one who compares babies. We are all guilty of that.
You are not alone and ppd certainly triggers even more anxiety than normal I feel so much better now that i take meds. I also have an anti panic med which is awesome for when I am having a meltdown. Sending big hugs!
I'm sorry to hear that! Just to make you feel a little better about her size... my LOs are 5 months today and are just slightly over 11 lbs and are still in 0-3 outfits.
another worrywort here. i've lost sleep worrying that my guys aren't hitting their milestones. or that the pedi isn't concerned enough about their reflux. i get heart palpitations from the anxiety sometimes. it's okay to see multiple doctors if you have concerns. our pedi kept telling us there was no point in seeing a GI specialist for reflux but we finally decided this isn't his area of expertise, so screw his opinion. we saw the GI specialist today. it doesn't mean there's ultimately something wrong, but you need to get reassurance from someone whose expertise really matters. you're not wrong to want confirmation that your daughter is okay. good luck. and good for you for going to the doctor for PPD meds. i struggled with PPD and was never able to get up the nerve to go to the doctor. it shows strength that you're willing to face it head on.
It is so hard not to compare them, but remember they are 2 different babies. One of my girls is a peanut and was very weak. We called Early Intervention and they came out and did an evaluation. It is free where I live. A physical therapist came once a week to help her strengthen her muscles. She is now crawling and almost walking and the other one isn't. Find out of that is an option for you where you live. I don't think you even need to get your pedi's approval, although mine suggested it.. It's great you are going to see a doctor about your anxiety/depression. I had severe anxiety after they were born and was put on meds for it. I'm just now coming off of them. I also saw a therapist just to get out once a week and talk to someone about everything that was going on in my head. I was an emotional basket case for a while after they were born. I'd have a breakdown every afternoon and just cry. I felt so overwhelmed and like I wasn't being a good mom. I now know that I was being a great mom, but it was so hard to see when I was going through it. I had extreme guilt all the time too. I was also nursing and starting to wean, which I think had a lot to do with it. Just keep telling yourself that it will get better, because it will. I promise. Come here to vent anytime you need to. Most of us have been where you are right now. Good luck!
QUOTE(christie76 @ Apr 23 2009, 01:43 PM) [snapback]1285757[/snapback] It is so hard not to compare them, but remember they are 2 different babies. One of my girls is a peanut and was very weak. We called Early Intervention and they came out and did an evaluation. It is free where I live. A physical therapist came once a week to help her strengthen her muscles. She is now crawling and almost walking and the other one isn't. Find out of that is an option for you where you live. I don't think you even need to get your pedi's approval, although mine suggested it.. It's great you are going to see a doctor about your anxiety/depression. I had severe anxiety after they were born and was put on meds for it. I'm just now coming off of them. I also saw a therapist just to get out once a week and talk to someone about everything that was going on in my head. I was an emotional basket case for a while after they were born. I'd have a breakdown every afternoon and just cry. I felt so overwhelmed and like I wasn't being a good mom. I now know that I was being a great mom, but it was so hard to see when I was going through it. I had extreme guilt all the time too. I was also nursing and starting to wean, which I think had a lot to do with it. Just keep telling yourself that it will get better, because it will. I promise. Come here to vent anytime you need to. Most of us have been where you are right now. Good luck! i am also going through ppd and finally went to my doc for meds...it's very common to be overwhelmed with twins and you're definitely not alone in comparing...you just want them to both thrive and do well! don't beat yourself up about it, but definitely talk to your doc or someone about your concerns.
We do have a Mental Health forum here at TS. If you are interested in the password, please PM me. It's a wonderful place for support. :grouphug:
Update: My meds are finally kicking in !!! Babies are STTN!!!!! Early Intervention came by and evaluated my daughter and said she was fine. She really started to progress in the last week. SHe has been holding her up and pushing up on her forearms. I almost called EI to cancel but they came and it gave me peace that she is developing normally. I hope now I can relax
That is wonderful! :clapping: I'm so glad the meds are helping. They did me a world of good. More than I knew, 'cause I tried to go off them and it didn't work! It's so much better to enjoy your babies than worry about them. :hug: GL
