just ranting i suppose

hey all. i am 35 wks and some change. boy/girl twins. I need to vent i feel like i'm going CRAZY!!!! i have a 9 1/2 month old, and a 12 year old and my husband works 2nd shift. i am SOOOOOOOOOOO exhausted and hurting. i am in so much pain. My lower abs hurt obviously. i'm very swollen down there. it hurts to sit. apparently they have dropped or my uterus just decided to grow uncontrollably in 3 days, now i have a stomach between my legs. I contract ALL DAY LONG. I just started getting puffy but as long as i dont move and keep my feel elevated, i dont get real puffy.... which is good. i've only gained 30 lbs which sounds like a lot, but really isnt'. my doctors are stupid. i just switched docs because my last doc FORGOT i was carrying twins!!!! these new docs though, i dont know.... i dont mind them. but i just went to the hospital on monday nite because i was having massive contractions. they claimed i had none, i felt at least 4 or 5. and the doc told me to take vitamin c because i "come in there all the time SICK" UM?!?!? i have been in there before, but NEVER ONCE was i sick....EVER. in fact i haven't been sick since january. she just had a horrible way of making me feel like going in there was stupid. i was just dehydrated. but either way. so i'm beyond sick, i think i have bronchitis. i'm very extremely pregnant, and i am at home all night by myself with a 9 month old and a 12 year old that doesnt listen. on top, we have to start rearranging our house to make room for babies, i have in laws who dont get the concept of boundaries. all i wanna do is sleep and i cant and it makes me wanna cry all day long. i just need one day with no kids, no in laws, no phone, no nothin....i just want to sleep. i thought me getting sick and contracting, and having a lot of pressure and being 1cm dialated could have meant i was on my way....but apparently i'm out of my mind. one doc told me i was dialating, and i'm not, and my contractions could "only be" from being dehydrated, although i drink water all day long and still need more... i just dont get it. i feel like crap and i hate that i am complaining about this because it is such a beautiful time, but i cant help it. i need a break and i can never get one. AHHHH please someone just help me!?!?!?!

 

I am sorry you are having such a hard time. You are almost there though, you have another 2-3 weeks and you'll be holding your sweet babies. I had a toddler while pregnant with my boys, and I found that hard, I couldnt imagine an almost 10 mnth old! Hopefully you'll get some relief soon.

 

:hug: Hang in there.

 

i'm trying to relax. just thinking of holding them helps. but then i get overwhelmed with all that is left to do. but i suppose you all are right, i have 21 days left, that is NOTHING!!!!! focus on folding little baby clothes and sleeping as much as i can. and playing with my little girl while i can a little bit! i cant wait til i can get on the floor with her and play again!!!! either way thanks. i feel a little better. i dont feel as sick and i'm a little more relaxed. does anyone know how to find some kind of support for my belly?

 

:youcandoit: Maybe if your ILs are unhelpful you could ask them to take your girl for a few hours and have her pm nap there? It would give you 4-5 hours to rest, do something and recharge. :hug: