Is it bad to want to be done with all this.....

I'm exactly 35 weeks today and today was a crappy day. I haven't been sleeping well (I bet you are thinking Duh right!) I think that's what is making this so bad. My bones hurt. Well I guess joints is a better choice of words. I get the budges all the time (I hope you know what the budges are, I can't sit still.) Something new that started today is I feel like I'm peeing through a straw. I can't get a good flow (It doesn't burn and I can empty my bladder it just takes a long time.... anyone else have that problem towards the end. does that mean that they have dropped.) I'm not going too much more than usual... just a little more. Can you only drop a little. My belly doesn't feel different, breathing isn't easier. I don't know. I am such a grump! I try so hard to be in a good mood and I end up hurting and snapping at someone that doesn't deserve it. I can't find any position that is comfortable. Sitting hurts, laying down hurts, the worse is moving to a standing position! URGH. I just don't know much longer I can take this. I feel guilty, God gave me these babies that I have prayed for, and now I'm complaining about it. My back hurts. I'm tired of this. I am so ready to kick the babies out. I'm done. I don't think I can handle it any more. I want to have my babies soon. I have a scheduled date of the 26th, 15 days from today.... but 15 days is half a month! I don't know if I can do this another day much less half a month. I am such a whiney person and I'm sorry you all are listening to this but I really need to get it out of me. I try not to let hubby hear all this because he's more nervous about the babies being out of me than I am. I just want them out and we will figure the rest out.

 

:hug99: :hug99: Dont feel so bad. I think every preggo lady goes thru this. I am just about to this point.. Just think.. In 15 days you will have 2 beautiful babies to hold and love.. and then you will say... cant i just put them back for a little while??? :lol: at least thats how i felt the first nite i brought home my DD.

You are almost there.. just 2 more weeks!!!! WTG!!

 

I'm with you sister! I have been sleeping like crap lately, My stomach is either rock hard at night or I have "crazy legs" and can't get comfortable or settle down, my mind is racing and I have to pee all the time. I have been getting back up and either getting on the computer, writing thank you notes, or reading a little in an attempt to bring on sleep. I am exhausted, but I just can't sleep!

I have the peeing problem too. It feels like my bladder is going to explode sometimes but when I get there I have that peeing through a straw feeling too. It seems like someone is laying right on it and like partially blocking it off...weird, I know. It is not a bladder infection type feeling, but still a strange sensation. To add to the misery, I am still working and they are renovating the restrooms on the entire floor of our building, so every time I have to go I have to go down a floor to the 8th floor potty. I think it is a sign that it might be time to stop working .

I am 36 weeks, only one cm dialated, and am hoping to have a vaginal delivery, so we are not even talking about inducing or anything at this point. I know if the babies decide to stay in for another few weeks it is what they need and best for them, but the thought of two weeks or more of this makes me feel a little weepy. I am doing a less and less good job of not being a grump with my DH and DS and am so ready for the pregnancy part of this journey to be over.

I know 15 days seems like forever, but just keep counting them down one by one and they will be over before you know it. Stay strong and know that your babies will be here in two weeks, how amazing! Take care!

 

I felt just like you do! Dont feel bad!
BUT, here is the crazy thing, I actually miss it!! I miss the babies being all mine and not having to share! I miss them being with me ALL day! I even miss the belly sometimes!

Of course I dont' miss the throwing up, leg cramps, back aches, constipation, constant peeing etc!

Hang in there!! You are almost there!

 

I'm only 32 weeks and I feel the same way. I want them OUT! I think, 32 weeks is fine, they'll be okay but then I want them in atleast another 2 or 3 and then get all weepy when I think of another 2 or 3 weeks of this! It's very hard at this point (I don't remember this with DS)...atleast we really are almost done regardless. Especially you! Good Luck. I say cry as much as you want, don't feel guilty and just "vedge" until you get there!

 

I know I felt the exact same way you did, and it started getting worse from about week 33 on. I was home from work by then, and spent days just watching TV~~anything to get my mind off how uncomfortable and how painful my body was!!!

I even wrote about it in my journal. I can remember one day just laying in bed crying cause of how bad I hurt......I could hardly breathe, by inner thigh muscles made moving torture, and my back was just done!!!!

I think most of us remember how we felt later in the pregnancy. And please, the best thing you can do is talk about it!!! Come on here, talk to your DH (he should know how you are feeling too!) and please, don't add guilt to everything. It is hard on our bodies to carry two babies, especially towards the end when they are so big and our bodies are stretched out to the max to support them.

Since you have a date already, just remember that each day they stay in there is one day better for them. That was the ONLY thing that helped me get through at the end; putting THEM first.

Now that they are running around and scrapping up their knees, I wish I could protect them like I did when they were in me!

You can do this. You are so close to the end. You can do this. They are getting bigger and stronger each day your body is nourishing them and protecting them. You can do this. Look at far you have come. Your goal is in sight.
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I have 6 days until scheduled c-section and I'm wondering how I am going to make it, too. I'm on hospital bedrest but am allowed to get up and walk around as much as I can tolerate but I am not allowed to leave the floor I'm on. I just feel so blah and whiney. I don't want to talk to anyone on the phone and tell visitors they can come if they want but it is not necessary. I just don't have the strength to entertain. My mom & stepdad are on their way here right now and I am trying to psych myself up.

I'm 34w2d and feel huge. Rolling over in bed is a huge deal and I even have side rails to grab for help. Can't get comfy and having lots of irritable uterus cx and a few other cx.

Hang in there. That is what I have to keep telling myself.

 

Hang in there -- you are near the end even if it doesn't feel like it. I felt that way starting about 30 weeks but more so every week. I used to cry at night, thinking that I couldn't bear it, but knowing that I had no choice.

The good news, in a sense, is that it didn't get MUCH worse from 35-37 weeks (when I delivered). I think I just felt so yucky overall, I didn't pay that much attention to small changes anymore.

I had a hard time after I delivered but I have never, not for a second, wished I was still pregnant. In fact at 19 months, I still try to feel grateful at least once a week that I'm not pregnant anymore.

One day at a time.... Don't feel guilty -- it is natural to complain when everything hurts!
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I've noticed just in the last 2 or 3 days how hard it is to pee. I get up during the night and my bladder hurts because I have to go so bad, but then I can only get out a dribble here and there. It is so frustrating--especially when you're half asleep. I still can't breath and don't feel any different other than the normal daily "miserables". I figure its just the way they are sitting and I'm hoping something will adjust--maybe just wishful thinking.