I'm done...

I was going to bow out quietly but decided to start a thread and be honest, something I don't usually do when it comes to weight loss.

I am totally sucking at this right now. I'm doing what I've always done...started off kicking tush and taking names. But then, I slip up a little, gain a little bit, then slip up more, and gain a little more, and so on and so forth. Then I get depressed because I've screwed up...again. Then I see other people's success and start to beat myself up, and get even worse. I fall off the wagon, and give up. I'm there, again, as usual.

I am SO DONE with this vicious cycle. I am NOT quitting this time until I lose this weight for once and for all. Done. DONE I tell ya!!

But, I'm withdrawing from the contest. The pressure of having to be accountable is always too much for me. I always hope that one of these times it will change and I'll actually stick to it. I need to bow out and refocus and get back on track.

I will continue to check in and keep tabs on all of you because I am SO proud of you ladies!! :wub: :grouphug:

 

:hug: You can do this Michelle! Here or not, we are rooting for you!

And yeah... I am feeling just like you... I hear ya! :hug: :youcandoit:

 

:hug: Michelle, I totally agree with what Meaghan wrote. Glad you will still be here to root us on and when you are ready, we'll be here to root you on! :youcandoit:

 

No!!! I know it's hard to post week after week when it's bad. But you need that accountability. I wish you would stay while you work through this bump. You are helping me work through mine, and I think the group could help you work through yours.

 

Don't leave us Michelle! If you don't want to post your losses/gains for a few weeks (or however long) I think we all totally understand that. But we don't want you to quit! I hope you don't feel pressured to post, especially if you gain b/c we all know how bad that feels. Don't forget, you're not alone in this. Everyone in here really struggles with their weight. We want you to stick around. :friends:

 

I'm taking a few weeks off right now. . .moving from one place to another has completely got me sapped both with energy and the ability/lack of to buy groceries (the more I buy, the more I have to pack and move.) So I completely understand! And thank you for having the balls to stand up and say why you're stepping down (especially to yourself!)

 

Michelle I have been in that vicious cycle for a while now. All I wanted was to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight and I would get within about 10 pounds and fall off the wagon again. I am happy to say I have somehow broken the cycle and don't intend to go back into it. I back to my pre-prego weight and feel terrific.

I changed a few things in order to do it:

I limit my calorie intake. I log everything I eat and keep myself to a certain amount of calories daily.

I no longer drink alcohol at home. I would treat myself to a glass or two of wine at night and found that the calories were about as much as an entire meal AND it made me hungry so that I would end up eating before bed.

I cut way back on eating out or getting take out. I can't count calories sufficiently when someone else has prepared my food so I only get take out as a very special treat.

I work out 6 days a week- no exceptions. (unless I am very sick). I get up at 5:00 a.m. and hit the gym 6 days a week. Cardio 3 days, sculpting 3 days. If I can't get to the gym I work out in the basement. After having the girls I put exercise as one of the last things on my priority list and that's when I really packed on the weight. Not anymore. I have had to get DH to help out more in the mornings with the kids and that has made a huge difference.

I never skip meals.

I know a lot of this is stuff you have probably heard before and counting calories and logging your meals takes up a lot of time. I view it as my hobby and try to make it interesting. That's why the contest and the message board in general are good for me. If I have a success I can let you guys know and you are happy for me. If I have a not so great day I can let you guys know and you will encourage me. It makes dieting much more fun! (Did I just use the words dieting and fun in the same sentence?).

Anyway, I hope you stick around and I hope you will let us know if we can help you in anyway!

Best of luck.

Lisa

 

Just hang out with us! Don't LEAVE!!! I love having you on my TEAM!!! :hug: You don't have to be accountable, but when you decide to chime in, go for it!

Quit beating yourself up, I think you just gave yourself a GREEN eye!

 

I hope you still check in with us. I have been struggling with this last ten pounds for way to long. One thing I have noticed is if I'm active in this forum, I have a better time staying focused.

 

I just want to say I know how you feel! Losing weight is hard work and sometimes it's a very long journey to get to where you want to be. Hang in there and find what works for you. I am not one of those women who can lose all of their baby weight by the time I go back for my post-partum check-up. It takes me time and no matter how "small" I get or how much I lose, I always weigh about 15-20 pounds more than my peers who wear the same size clothing. That's just my build and that's how I've always been and how I'll always be. So when I get on the scale now I say "is that a number that works for me?" Not, "I should weight xxx" To me, weight loss is psychological - you have to do it your way, in your own time, on your own terms. Focus on what makes you feel good, happy and healthy and forget about everything else and everyone else if you need to. Once I got to the point where I was really ready, working harder, eating less and staying focused became much easier. I just had to get to that point in my own time. Good luck and like the pp's have said, we're cheering for you.

 

Michelle, if you notice I too have been not posting my numbers. In part because of the surgery, but also because after the surgery, I put almost 10 pounds back on, because I couldn't MOVE. I'm waiting til I can get back to my pre surgery number to chime in, and its frustrating me that I can't seem to get there. The hardest part lately for me is that the nice weather is returning, and I'm seeing people out walking, and I want to go for a walk. I can't do it, at least not yet. I am still in a cast most of the day. I've turned in my crutches, but the heavy removable cast is still my 'friend' and will be for a few more weeks.

I can totally understand where you are coming from. Take some time, reasses your priorities and what you need to get you to your goal. If posting your progress helps then by all means do it, but if posting your weights, both ups and downs makes it harder on you, don't do it. It will just make your journey more difficult to travel. Remember we are here for you, you have my phone number if you want to call.

 

Woah, thanks for the tears ladies. :cry: :wub: :grouphug:

I'm definitely NOT giving up on my weight loss journey, just giving up posting updates about myself. I self-sabotage all the time when it comes time to being accountable.

 

Thank you! :hug: I know you are. :hug:

Thanks Nancy! :hug:

I know. To be honest, you're the first person I thought of. :blush: I know we have been helping each other, and I will still be here, just not as vocal about myself and my numbers. Does that make any sense? I just need to take the pressure off of me a little. :good:

Nope, not leaving the forum, just the contest. :good:
I don't feel pressured by any of you to post, it's my own self-sabotage. It's my history, this is what I do. BUT, the difference is I usually give up and walk away completely. I'm not doing it this time. I'm just not going to be held publicly accountable.

 

:good: Life is hard sometimes. I'll be here when you hop back on that wagon once the move is done.

You're a nut, but I :wub: you so!! :friends:
I do need to quit beating myself up for sure. That is on my list of to-do's.
Don't worry, I'm not leaving completely!!

I will definitely check in! Thanks, Lisa.

Thank you! :hug:

Oooh Miss Molly! I know you have it rough right now. KNow that I am rooting/cheering for you too. :wub: And yes, I do know I can call you anytime. You are awesome my friend!!

 

THANK YOU so much for taking the time to type this all out. To be honest, I could have written a lot of it myself and do know the tools to being successful at weight loss. I'm a firm believer in tracking, eating healthy carbs, avoiding most alcohol (I am Irish after all ) and sugars, and exercising.

What I need to work on is: 1) the guilt of slipping up; 2) emotional eating; 3) putting the tools to use so they become habit again and resisting all the temptaions around me; and 4) making time for myself to fit in exercise!!

Again, thank you for sharing. I truly appreciate it! :friends:

 

I totally understand how u feel. And having a physical disability myself makes reaching my goals even harder. I feel like i get no where really, makes me depressed. :hug: hang in there u can do it!

 

Thanks Tamara. :hug: I wish you success too!!

 

I'm Irish too! And not having the alcohol in the house was a huge step for me.

 

:hug: Michelle! I totally get it and am just about in the same boat!
I'm glad you'll still be around

 

I thought of you today! I am off on M/F, so while my girls are in school I'm going to make every single effort to get in a really good workout those mornings. Weds. afternoon my neighbor and I have committed to exercising together, so there's a start. Your comments about making time for yourself really hit me because it's just the way I've been feeling. So, thank you! :bow2:

I hate that you are in the same boat, but am thankful you get it! :hug:

 

YOU GO! Rock on with your bad self.