I sooooooo want to be done now

I know I am very very blessed to be able to carry these babies till 36 weeks. I was told repeatedly that these babies might not make it due to heavy subchorionic bleeding for 6 weeks, then suspected TTTS and PTL. At 20 weeks I went on strict bedrest for 8 weeks and since then on modified bedrest. I have looked forward to each week passing by to make it to 24, then 28, then 32 and then 34.
But now at 36.....I am sooooooooooooooooooo done :cry: . I am hormonal like crazy :crazy: . I cant walk more than 10 steps. There is no way I can find comfortable position to sit or lie down. My pelvic bones and crotch area hurt like they are hit by baseball bats everyday :BDH: . My back is bent beyond recognition and I dont think it will ever be straight again. Cant sleep on any side or my back. How the hell do I get rest. Ambien doesnt work anymore. Twin A is way down in my crotch and keeps hitting in my cervix.........and that hurts so much that I pretty much double up with pain :wacko: . I have gained 46 pounds and most of it is in my tummy. Needless to say......my legs and feet have swelled up and hurt a lot. For the past few days I have been hit by morning sickness and nausea. I also feel light headed. I feel like crying the whole day, but cant do it because my 2.5 year old starts crying too :cry: I am so tired of going to pee and potty every time I eat or drink something. I am so frustrated right now and then I start feeling guilty since these babies depend on me.
I have a scheduled induction on 18 Sep and I can see the end is near, but cant wait anymore. I know these 2 weeks will pass by too, but there are moments when I think I cant take it anymore :80:

 

:hug:
I know it is so hard at the end! I am so sorry. Hang in there. I hope the venting helps at least a little.

 

ohhh :hug: to you ~
It is SO trying in those last couple weeks physically & emotionally. You are not alone :hug:
Keep your chin up ~ those babies will be here before you know it & everything will be worth it :wub:
Hang in there & vent away when you need to!!!

 

I know how hard it is but the end is near!!! Hang in there!!!!

 

ahhh, i so remember those days. I know it feels like it's never going to end, but one day soon it will all just happen and you'll be holding those babies in your arms. Cherish every moment you are pregnant(even if you don't feel great), because when it's done you'll miss it. You've come this far mama....you can do it...just keep your chin up and relax as much as possible!

 

:hug: :hug:
At 35 weeks they kept telling me they wouldnt stop my labor.. And what did they do? Gave me shots of Terb. Then i went in a week later and more shots. <_< All this with my DR telling my that he didnt think i would make it past 35 weeks. He was honestly shocked everytime i walked in for my appt. FINALLY my labor started at 38 +3.

I totally understand where you are comming from. Those few extra weeks can mean a lot for your babies! :hug: Hang in there and the end is so near!!!!

 

:hug: Monica!! You are doing such a good job!! You are almost there...Hang in there!! :hug:

 

I'm so sorry and I sympathize with you. It's almost over with and then you will be able to breathe again, I promise. It all goes away almost instantly.

 

I felt exactly the same way...the day I went into labor! :0 You have done an amazing job keeping those babies cooking and should be very proud of yourself! Hang in there, it's almost over!

 

Monica, :hug: You are right, it is tiring and painful and uncomfy... but you are almost at the finish line momma. You are doing an amazing job, and before you know it, you'll have your babies right there with you. :hug: Hang in there and come here whenever you need to vent.

 

Thanks ladies..........your encouragement made me cry again :cry: (hormones acting up)
Thanks for all your support

 

OH Mama! I’m so sorry, as soon as you hold your beautiful babies all this will be a faint memory. Stay strong. You’re doing amazing!!!!

 

Yes I know exactly how you feel!! We're in the same boat..I have a scheduled C-Section on the 19th of this month and I feel as if I won't make it either!! But we have to hang in there for the babies sake and before we know it they will be here happy and healthy!! Good Luck!!

 

I know how you feel reading your post was like I wrote it, but I have no other kids to have to be strong for. :hug: I can barely make it to my doctors appts anymore. Today I took some crackers with me to eat on the way and I dropped them on the passenger side and knew they were lost forever I was in so much pain from having to get ready to go to the doctor I just started crying my eyes out!! I feel like a freak because no one I know had a pregnancy this painful! I have been having a lot of contractions for a couple of days now and they don't seem to keep consistent. I can't get dressed or put my shoes on and today the doctor tells me I am having contractions to often so no more driving So now I have to have my MIL take me to the three appts. I have a week and I can barely stand her when I am not pregnant let alone now that I hate everyone!!! I know I just posted one just like this but it feels good to vent again! I hope the rest of your time goes by fast and you can share you birth story and give me some hope

 

I remember those days! At 36 weeks I would have let the doctors pull the babies out of my nose, whatever it took to get it over with! It's not easy, but as pp said, once the babies are here, and are healthy, all this crap you've put up with for what seems to be an eternity, will be a distant memory, and well worth it! You're almost there!!

 

hang in there hun,
crying isnt bad and you can get your little one excited by telling her you cant wait for the babies to come and for her to meet them,
i did 20 weeks of bedrest @ home and 4 in hospital with my youngist son, you forget the feeling right away, i know i hated it but not the feeling,
share with as many people as you can, it helps keep you relaxed. they will be here soon.
i know you don want to her but the longer the ycan stay in you and bake the better they are

 

:hug: I understand completely where you are coming from too.. Im 36wks 2 days and
feel exactly the same way. Im scheduled for induction on the 18th if my boys aren't out
before then (I already have 2 girls and both of them had to be kicked out also)... Hang
in there, before long we will be holding our babies...

 

You have my sympathy!! It is very hard and you are almost through. Hang in there just a little longer, you can do it!!!!

 

QUOTE(firsttimetwinzymommy @ Sep 5 2008, 02:07 PM) [snapback]965475[/snapback]
... today the doctor tells me I am having contractions to often so no more driving So now I have to have my MIL take me to the three appts. I have a week and I can barely stand her when I am not pregnant let alone now that I hate everyone!!! I know I just posted one just like this but it feels good to vent again! I hope the rest of your time goes by fast and you can share you birth story and give me some hope


You got to drive?! no fair! I haven't been on that side of a car for months now, due to I can't reach the pedals with out my belly hitting the steering wheel. <_< Just be glad your MIL will only have to drive you for a few weeks. Mine has been driving me for a while now.

Anyway, Monica, have a hug! :hug: It sucks on toast! I haven't slept well in forever, I have to get up every 2 hours to pee. Lately it's been more like 1.5 or 1 hour. I figure I'm just being prepped for when I have to get up a feed two babies. (Doesn't it just drive you nuts when people say stuff like "Get all the sleep you can now, 'cause you'll never sleep again!" and think they're funny? If they knew how sleep deprived I was already.... well let's just say I try not to resort to violence with these people.) My baby A has been head butting my cervix too. Hurts like hell, but I'm hoping he's helping to thin it out. Baby B thinks he should come out the other way, and has been climbing my rib cage. He's only just now realized he has to go the other way, but try as he might (and he does!) he can't flip over now.

I've gained about the same amount of weight as you have. My dr said I could lose about 20 in the delivery, and the rest should come off pretty quickly after that, especially if you breastfeed.

I have heard that nausea can be a sign that labor is soon, but I'm not sure what "soon" really means. Like is it tomorrow? Two weeks? A month?

I have been assured that I won't be pregnant forever. But to be honest I don't believe them. If my twins are anything like their father, once they get comfy there isn't a force in heaven or earth that can move them! I just know when my dr tries to get baby B out he'll grab onto my ribs with a death grip and refuse to budge.

I guess I've just taken the long way of saying, I know how you feel. It sucks. A lot.

 

QUOTE(Vivian @ Sep 6 2008, 11:48 AM) [snapback]966581[/snapback]
You got to drive?! no fair! I haven't been on that side of a car for months now, due to I can't reach the pedals with out my belly hitting the steering wheel. <_< Just be glad your MIL will only have to drive you for a few weeks. Mine has been driving me for a while now.

Anyway, Monica, have a hug! :hug: It sucks on toast! I haven't slept well in forever, I have to get up every 2 hours to pee. Lately it's been more like 1.5 or 1 hour. I figure I'm just being prepped for when I have to get up a feed two babies. (Doesn't it just drive you nuts when people say stuff like "Get all the sleep you can now, 'cause you'll never sleep again!" and think they're funny? If they knew how sleep deprived I was already.... well let's just say I try not to resort to violence with these people.) My baby A has been head butting my cervix too. Hurts like hell, but I'm hoping he's helping to thin it out. Baby B thinks he should come out the other way, and has been climbing my rib cage. He's only just now realized he has to go the other way, but try as he might (and he does!) he can't flip over now.

I've gained about the same amount of weight as you have. My dr said I could lose about 20 in the delivery, and the rest should come off pretty quickly after that, especially if you breastfeed.

I have heard that nausea can be a sign that labor is soon, but I'm not sure what "soon" really means. Like is it tomorrow? Two weeks? A month?

I have been assured that I won't be pregnant forever. But to be honest I don't believe them. If my twins are anything like their father, once they get comfy there isn't a force in heaven or earth that can move them! I just know when my dr tries to get baby B out he'll grab onto my ribs with a death grip and refuse to budge.

I guess I've just taken the long way of saying, I know how you feel. It sucks. A lot.




Oh Vivian I just noticed you have a week left :banana: thats awsome can't wait to hear all about it!!! Yesterday my sister tells me how my pregnancy has just flown by ahhhhaaaahhaaa I could have punched her in the nose...

 

*phone rings* "seven days...." :blink:

 

QUOTE(firsttimetwinzymommy @ Sep 5 2008, 04:07 PM) [snapback]965475[/snapback]
I know how you feel reading your post was like I wrote it, but I have no other kids to have to be strong for. :hug: I can barely make it to my doctors appts anymore. Today I took some crackers with me to eat on the way and I dropped them on the passenger side and knew they were lost forever I was in so much pain from having to get ready to go to the doctor I just started crying my eyes out!! I feel like a freak because no one I know had a pregnancy this painful! I have been having a lot of contractions for a couple of days now and they don't seem to keep consistent. I can't get dressed or put my shoes on and today the doctor tells me I am having contractions to often so no more driving So now I have to have my MIL take me to the three appts. I have a week and I can barely stand her when I am not pregnant let alone now that I hate everyone!!! I know I just posted one just like this but it feels good to vent again! I hope the rest of your time goes by fast and you can share you birth story and give me some hope


I know......nobody understands that twin pregnancy is sooooooooooo different.
I hope you make it through your appts with your MIL and she survives the fury of a pregnant lady. Bless your heart.

 

QUOTE(rarasnake @ Sep 5 2008, 11:50 PM) [snapback]966114[/snapback]
:hug: I understand completely where you are coming from too.. Im 36wks 2 days and
feel exactly the same way. Im scheduled for induction on the 18th if my boys aren't out
before then (I already have 2 girls and both of them had to be kicked out also)... Hang
in there, before long we will be holding our babies...


Good Luck to you..........

 

QUOTE(xianfern @ Sep 5 2008, 05:44 PM) [snapback]965578[/snapback]
At 36 weeks I would have let the doctors pull the babies out of my nose, whatever it took to get it over with!


That really cracked me up :rotflmbo: .......and then it was time to pee again

 

Monica I remember that feeling all too well. I went to 37.5 weeks with the girls and had a planned c-section. At around 35/36 weeks I was begging my dr to let me have the girls, I was miserable. This place was my saving grace. Keep cooking those little ones you are doing a fantastic job. Your little ones will be here before you know it!!!

 

QUOTE(Soon2bmommyof2boysand1girl @ Sep 5 2008, 03:54 PM) [snapback]965457[/snapback]
Yes I know exactly how you feel!! We're in the same boat..I have a scheduled C-Section on the 19th of this month and I feel as if I won't make it either!! But we have to hang in there for the babies sake and before we know it they will be here happy and healthy!! Good Luck!!


Good luck to you.........

 

QUOTE(Vivian @ Sep 6 2008, 12:48 PM) [snapback]966581[/snapback]
You got to drive?! no fair! I haven't been on that side of a car for months now, due to I can't reach the pedals with out my belly hitting the steering wheel. <_< Just be glad your MIL will only have to drive you for a few weeks. Mine has been driving me for a while now.

Anyway, Monica, have a hug! :hug: It sucks on toast! I haven't slept well in forever, I have to get up every 2 hours to pee. Lately it's been more like 1.5 or 1 hour. I figure I'm just being prepped for when I have to get up a feed two babies. (Doesn't it just drive you nuts when people say stuff like "Get all the sleep you can now, 'cause you'll never sleep again!" and think they're funny? If they knew how sleep deprived I was already.... well let's just say I try not to resort to violence with these people.) My baby A has been head butting my cervix too. Hurts like hell, but I'm hoping he's helping to thin it out. Baby B thinks he should come out the other way, and has been climbing my rib cage. He's only just now realized he has to go the other way, but try as he might (and he does!) he can't flip over now.

I've gained about the same amount of weight as you have. My dr said I could lose about 20 in the delivery, and the rest should come off pretty quickly after that, especially if you breastfeed.

I have heard that nausea can be a sign that labor is soon, but I'm not sure what "soon" really means. Like is it tomorrow? Two weeks? A month?

I have been assured that I won't be pregnant forever. But to be honest I don't believe them. If my twins are anything like their father, once they get comfy there isn't a force in heaven or earth that can move them! I just know when my dr tries to get baby B out he'll grab onto my ribs with a death grip and refuse to budge.

I guess I've just taken the long way of saying, I know how you feel. It sucks. A lot.


Vivian, what you said is so true
Some of the stuff made me laugh really hard. :rofl:
And cant wait to hear your birth story............one week to go................ :yahoo:

 

I *only* made it to 35 weeks so I don't know exactly how you feel but I do hope time flies for you. Great job and just think, the bigger they are the better they will feed and maintain the temperatures. Congrats x 2 and big hugs!

 

:hug:

 

I could easily have written the same thing. I feel your pain, literally. I have the same horrendous feelings you have.

I'm just days away from finally being done. Now, I'm just trying to hold them in until my c-section at the end of this week.

I, too, shocked the doctor by making it this far with crazy bp issues we almost had to have the twins several times if we couldn't get it under control. Someone up above must have a plan to make me suffer so much, right?

 

Aww :hug:

We have all been there. I didn't hear a peep out of my twins and then I was to be induced at 38 weeks, I went to my Dr and he said he wouldn't be there then, so scheduled me for 38w, 3 days. I cried my eyes out all the way home from the Dr's office at the thought of carrying them for an extra 3 days!!!!
SOmeone earlier said that once your pg is over you will miss it....... I can confirm that not everyone does. I didn't miss ONE SINGLE THING about it.
Try to occupy your mind - if you can - save your sanity. They'll be here (and be 10 mths old) before you know it. GOod Luck with the birth, I hope it goes smoothly for you

 

I know its hard, I remember the days. I begged my dr at my 37wk appt to induce me, by the time they got me in I had them at 37wks 6 days! I was sooo uncomfortable those last few weeks. Hang in there, you will feel better soon! And, believe it or not you will barely remember those days a few months down the road.
Don't get me wrong I never want to be pregnant again, I remember that much! : )
Big Hugs!