I just can't

So I had my NST and BPP today and there was 1 deceleration in my boys heartrate at one point. The BPP looked great and other than that 1 incident, everything was good. The Peri is having me come back in the AM For another NST/BPP but has indicated that if there is any dip he would likely put me in the hospital for the duration of the pregnancy -
OK but I can't be away from my DD right now - she just lost her Granpa last week, I am either resting or at the doc all of the time already and she is just a mess to begin with right now. How can I be away from this precious little one for Christmas and while she is having such a hard time already.

Ladies I just don't know how much more I can take - I may sound aweful and selfish but I'm shot......

 

You are NOT awful or selfish. anyone in that position would feel the same way! You have been through SO much and have not been able to really enjoy this pregnancy at all. I hope there are no dips tomorrow and you can go home. If you have to stay - it will be ok, maybe your daughter can visit you often and you guys can just do Christmas at the hospital. I am so sorry that you are facing this - you are in my thoughts and prayers as always.


Heather

 

I am so sorry. I know how hard it was for me to be hospitalized and away from my family at Christmas...and I didn't even have a younger child at home. So my heart goes out to you. :hug:

 

Try to stay positive. Hopefully things will go great tomorrow and you will get to go back home. If you do need to go to the hospital feel free to chat with me about it. Today makes 5 weeks for me in the hospital. I have a 2 1/2 year old daughter who doesn't understand why mommy isn't home. That is definitely the hardest part. DD and DH do come visit every day so that makes it a little easier. Everytime DD walks in the room it makes my day! Good luck and keep us posted!

 

Just wanted to send a :hug: your way...
Hang in there

 

Joanna, I know that must be a daunting thought. It breaks my heart every time my stepson comes to visit and asks "Danielle, are you coming home with us today?" I know it's hard for them to understand and especially here at the holidays. Sending prayers and good thoughts your way. Just remember that whatever happens, it's in the best interest for all of your children in the long run.

 

Joanna, I did 7 weeks in the hospital while expecting M and J. My DD was 2 1/2. It was really hard while I was there but the minute I got home she forgot and everything was alright. I wish I had known it was going to be like that!

 

Joanna,
I´m so sorry, you have gone through sooo much
Hang in there

 

:hug: Joanna!! I hope your appointment goes well tomorrow and you don't have to go in the hospital. Take Care!!

 

I hope that your appointment goes well !! Try not to worry about anything i know thats hard it will all be fine !!

 

You're all great - thanks so much. Been so sad tonight but maybe I am getting ahead of myself...I guess I just have a lot of emotions right now...

 

Crossing everything for you ((hug))

 

:hug: :hug: :hug: I feel for you! When I was 28 weeks pregnant with my twins my OB told me at my routine appointment that I had to go straight to the hospital to be admitted for the remainder of my pregnancy because of Twin to Twin Transfusion. It was the night before my son started first grade. I cried and begged them to let me out just to take him to his first day of school but I couldn't because I had to be monitored. I still can't believe I wasn't there on his first day of school BUT I am so thankful I listened to my Obs and did what was best for my twins. You are NOT selfish and some day when you are holding both your babies you will be glad you followed doctor's orders. Good luck.

 

BIG hugs for you! I'm really sorry you're having to deal with all this. Praying that your appt goes well tomorrow and you don't have to be hospitalized!

 

Keep your chin up. Sending lots of love your way.

 

Sending loads of good wishes your way. :hug: I hope your appointment goes well today.

 

Don't feel like you're an awful Mommy, you are thinking about all your babies right now. I for one would feel the same way. I'm praying all goes well for you and your family.

 

You don't sound awful or selfish to me. You sound stressed out to your max. I hope things get better for you soon and that you don't have to stay in the hospital. :hug:

 

:hug: I'm so sorry, Joanna. This pregnancy has been so difficult and you've continued to be so positive and in good spirits. You are not awful or selfish for not wanting to be admitted to the hospital for the duration of your pregnancy - you are being a mommy! You have another child who you don't want to be away from! There is nothing wrong with that. I was in the hospital for 2 nights and then another time for 1 night while I was pg with my twins and each time I felt like I was "abandoning" my older DS. And it was just for a few nights! I think what you are feeling is very, very normal. Pregnancies aren't "supposed" to be this hard - no one goes into pregnancy expecting to deal with all that you have had to deal with. You are doing an amazing job!! Hopefully your appt. will go well today and you can come right home to your DD. If you do have to go to the hospital, remember she is young and this will all be a distant memory for her (and you, too, one day!). She won't remember this time - it is just a small little bit of time in relation to her entire childhood. :hug:

 

*fingers crossed* for a good appt today. I was on bed rest with a 2 year old too over Thanksgiving. It was very hard, but you have to look to the future and realize that you are doing what is best for those babies right now!! GL!

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Whew.......

Things went OK today so for now I can stay home and rest. I feel so relieved......I go back in a couple of days for another but for today,I get to be home!!!Thank you all again for all of your support, don't know what I'd do without it!

 

Joanna-try and stay positive, I know it is hard but it is the best thing you can do for your sweet little girl. As a pp mentioned this will all be a distant memory for her very soon and try and think what next Christmas will bring-three beautiful children opening presents and having a very merry Christmas!
I went on bedrest last year a few weeks before Christmas and it was tough with a 3yo! But I am so glad that it worked out. She doesnt even remember it and loves her baby brother and sister dearly!
I am hoping for the very best for you and your family-you have been through so much already and really deserve some good news-hope your appt. goes well!
Keep us posted!
Thinking of you...

 

Thats great news! Stay calm and relaxed

 

hun
im so sorry you have another jump to take,
you have to remember what you have been threw and how far you have made it with BOTH of your babies.
i know it is hard to be away from family. but they can come see you everyday. you have fought for him for a long time, my son was 2 when i went into the hospital. he understood that the baby needed mommy to stay at the hospital. she will understand, and she will help anyway she can, all you can do is stay strong & listen to what they are thinking, think of what as best for you and the family.
i hope your nst goes great tommorow but if you ned to be in the hospital than you need to be. what ever is best for the babies to grow alittle longer. it s hard but all worth it when everyone is finally togeather
angela

 

Good luck Joanna. I so hope you your appt goes well and you can go home with your family!!!