I finally gave in...

Well, I had an peri appt first this morning. Both the little tikes are breech with their head up under my ribs on the left side. Baby A is 4lb 13oz and Baby B is 4lbs 10oz. Cervix is measuring greater than 4. Then it was across town to the OB...wieght gain in two weeks - 5lbs. WHAT? Then I look at my ankles, feet and hands...I know where the 5lbs are. I can hardly wear shoes. Blood pressure 120/70...WOOHOO..so far so good. My OB is impressed with how I am doing. Then, I tell him how I have been struggling with depression the whole pregnancy and it has begun to get unbearable. For the past, 4 days I have cried. I cried night before last because I can't put on my wedding ring anymore. I cried last night because I was so swollen and unable to help with anything around the house. I cried today because I had to go to the peri and OB without my DH...he had to work. I also cried today because I admitted to my doctor I was depressed. He prescribed some anti-depressants for me. I have tried being strong this whole pregnancy holding myself together...I just don't feel like I can anymore. I literally want to hide until it is time to deliver these little ones but I can't I have a family to take care of and a job to maintain. Hopefully, these meds will help. My OB said because this is a twin pregnancy, I am at greater risk of post-pardum depression (mainly do to the demand that they will place on me after I am born) and I am better off starting the meds now. I hope they work... for my sake, the twins sake, my sweet DD's sake and my DH's sake.

 

:hug: I'm glad you are getting help! Being pregnant with twins can be hard. Glad you talked to your doctor!

 

:hug:'s I'm so happy your doctor understood what you are going through and is taking precaution to PPD. :hug: So happy to hear everything else is looking good. :good: You are doing an amazing job. :youcandoit:

 

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Give it time and things will hopefully look up! It will take just a bit before the meds kick in.

I know exactly how it feels not being able to even wear a wedding band and shoes anymore. I can really sympathize on that point right now.
It's intimadating thinking of how to deal with what seems to going to be an overload once they are here. Try to deal with the here and now and not borrow trouble. :hug:

You'll make it and come out stronger for it later! Just keep your head up and remember to take it easy when you can.

 

This may be a ridiculous suggestion - especially if you are swollen and are having a hard time getting around ... I was distraught about the wedding ring deal with my first (singleton) pregnancy. I bought a CZ two sizes up (the band, the rock was only slightly larger - but people did think that my husband had upgraded me - ha ha) and wore it until the end - and then happily passed it around to my friends who had pregnancy swelling too. My pretend ring was around $20 and set in sterling, amazingly - I purchased it from the gift shop at Texas Scottish Rite Hospital while working volunteer hours for my Junior League placement that year. It was a pretty cheap mental boost.

 

QUOTE(amymc72 @ Jun 24 2009, 03:43 PM) [snapback]1367229[/snapback]
This may be a ridiculous suggestion - especially if you are swollen and are having a hard time getting around ... I was distraught about the wedding ring deal with my first (singleton) pregnancy. I bought a CZ two sizes up (the band, the rock was only slightly larger - but people did think that my husband had upgraded me - ha ha) and wore it until the end - and then happily passed it around to my friends who had pregnancy swelling too. My pretend ring was around $20 and set in sterling, amazingly - I purchased it from the gift shop at Texas Scottish Rite Hospital while working volunteer hours for my Junior League placement that year. It was a pretty cheap mental boost.

I also purchased a cheap wedding band (that I actually like) with my twin pregnancy. And I am still wearing it with my current pregnancy. I'm so glad your Dr. prescribed the meds. Let us know how they are working for you. Did he tell you when you would be able to see a difference in your mood and emotions?

 

Good for you for talking with your doctor. I think it's smart to do something about the depression now rather than wait until after delivery. Plus, this time is so hard in a twin pregnancy! The swelling, the lack of sleep, the tiredness, etc. It's really hard. I cried daily during week 33. (I delivered at 34 weeks on the dot.)

 

I'm so glad your dr. understood and took precautions.. Hope you start to feel better soon

 

QUOTE(abersmacky @ Jun 24 2009, 09:09 PM) [snapback]1367187[/snapback]
Well, I had an peri appt first this morning. Both the little tikes are breech with their head up under my ribs on the left side. Baby A is 4lb 13oz and Baby B is 4lbs 10oz. Cervix is measuring greater than 4. Then it was across town to the OB...wieght gain in two weeks - 5lbs. WHAT? Then I look at my ankles, feet and hands...I know where the 5lbs are. I can hardly wear shoes. Blood pressure 120/70...WOOHOO..so far so good. My OB is impressed with how I am doing. Then, I tell him how I have been struggling with depression the whole pregnancy and it has begun to get unbearable. For the past, 4 days I have cried. I cried night before last because I can't put on my wedding ring anymore. I cried last night because I was so swollen and unable to help with anything around the house. I cried today because I had to go to the peri and OB without my DH...he had to work. I also cried today because I admitted to my doctor I was depressed. He prescribed some anti-depressants for me. I have tried being strong this whole pregnancy holding myself together...I just don't feel like I can anymore. I literally want to hide until it is time to deliver these little ones but I can't I have a family to take care of and a job to maintain. Hopefully, these meds will help. My OB said because this is a twin pregnancy, I am at greater risk of post-pardum depression (mainly do to the demand that they will place on me after I am born) and I am better off starting the meds now. I hope they work... for my sake, the twins sake, my sweet DD's sake and my DH's sake.


Good for you. I'm not a Mum of twins, but a Mum to 2 boys. My second pregnancy I cried constantly, just like you say. I ended up on Anti Depressants when he was 8 weeks old. I wish I'd done it sooner, I wouldn't have wasted his first 8 weeks. They will work, you will start to feel better in 10-14 days - they don't change your personality, they just take the "extreme" reactions away. You did a good thing - you were very brave and you have asked for help. My Dr told me that when I was depressed my brain was not producing the right chemicals at the right level - and by not taking medicine, I was being as foolish as a diabetic not using insulin... xxxx

 

I am so glad you spoke with your doctor and he is taking precaution against PPD. You are doing great, you are almost there hand in there :hug: :youcandoit:

 

I know exactly how you feel! From the swelling... not depression but really heightened anxiety leading to panic attacks. I finally called my OB on Tuesday in tears. He told me to go back on my anti-anxiety meds or take gravol to help me sleep and relax. Tuesday night I slept like a baby last night not so much and the anxious feelings are coming back again I really don't want to go back on them but am thinking MAYBE it's the best thing!! Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk!

 

Great for talking to your dr, but Im also really glad you posted too. First, this a great place for the support, but second Im glad people are talking about this. Baby blues after pregnancy gets a lot of attention but baby blues during pregnancy has recieved little to nothing. I to struggled with my last 2 pregnancies. Not after, just during. I read a report that suggested baby blues during pregnancy may be higher then after pregnancy but no one talks about it as much there for it goes untreated because many women just don't know what to make of it. This is diffenently a subject that NEEDS more attention. SO GOOD FOR YOU! And good luck.

 

Good for you for talking about it and getting what you need to help you get through this. I know I cry almost every night, well ok, I want to cry almost every night but wait to have short ones while I'm in the bathroom or something so I don't do it in front of my kids and family most of the time. I cry for the same things you do, I hate not wearing my wedding rings but I couldn't find any fake ones that would fit. I also cry because doing anything already is hard. I cry because giving my 12 month old a bath is excruciatingly hard, playing on the floor with her is hard and so on. We are all there with ya so even though it's hard at least you're not alone! :hug: It will get better!

 

I just wanted to thank you for your post--I, too, think the topic of depression during pregnancy isn't discussed enough. Good for you in reaching out to your doctor... it makes you such a good role model to other women/mothers for taking care of yourself. It's so admirable. I hope you begin to feel better soon!

 

I am so relieved to have seen this post. the past several weeks have been really hard on me. I cry at anything and no one understands. DH tries but normally we end up having an argument when I get upset.

I always feel down and helpess and many other feelings. I cried and cried last night and I try to hide it from people because well its my business and nothing anyone can do can make it better.

I talked to my OB my last visit about it and he asked if I have ever been on anti depressants and I said no. Im usually not one for a "pill to make me feel better" but my outlook on that has drastically changed. He did suggest I talk to a counsler. well I did that when I was 17 or 18 and that was useless so I am trying to battle it out this time. I will keep giving him a heads up each visit though because eventually, I am going to need something. Props to you for getting help! At least many of us know now that we are NOT alone in this!

 

Yeah I feel you...I have been doing my share of crying lately as well. I cried when I went to L&D for contrations this past wkend..but not nessasarily because of the contrations (although they were painful) but mainly because my Dr. was away on vacation and my husband was 6 states away working, some of the nurses were not too kind at first..also when my husband finally made it home I cry because sometimes he don't understand how I feel and think that I can still walk on swollen feet and I cry because I feel that some of his actions are insensitive. I even cried when I posted a post earlier. Sometimes it's just good to cry..is what I told myself. So...you are not alone we have some things going on with us right now...I am happy that your Dr. prescribed you some relief. As for this moment.. I feel fine..I say that I am going to be looking forward to relaxing off the meds that I will get when I have these babies. :blush: