Getting Emotional

I think the reality of hospital bedrest is setting in. I cried on the phone with DH last night. This was so unexpected, it's almost like being arrested although the food is probably better. lol

Today I was allowed to walk to the end of the L&D ward to the darling baby boutique they have there. I've never been in there and I looked forward to it all day. They are only open 10-2. External monitoring started at 8:45 and didn't stop til 11:30 because they kept losing the heartbeats. And all they needed was a good 15 minute strip! Argh I was so frustrated. Then I had a whole bunch of visitors at once right when lunch came. Way too many people. I finally got out the door to the shop at 1:30 to find they closed early today. I seriously almost cried. I've been very emotional all day. Wonder if that is the Pre-e or just the stress of being here worried about the babies and me?

 

:hug99: Definitely the stress. You are under an immense amount of it, despite having nothing to do all day! I know and understand how hard it can be. I too was also overwhelmed by visitors...I didn't want many. Just know that it does get easier, you will find your own "routine" to keep you busy each day. And the reward at the end of it all makes each moment worthwhile.

 

I delivered at 33 weeks just recently and was on hospital bedrest for almost 2 months - the hospital was a 30 min. drive from my home it was terrible not to see my DH DD and DS everyday - YES it was like jail - but remember there is a LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL.

THINKING about jail - llok at what my next door neighbor now is facing in jail here is a link - CRAZY

i have been friends with these people for the last 4 years....we carpool with them for our kids to go to school - Oh well they are now gone to jail for along time

http://www.orangecountyda.com/home/index.a...mp;recordid=852

 

Hospital bedrest is really stressful - I had 7 weeks of it myself and you do settle into a routine. The beginning is dreadful and I so feel for you. Oh I doubt the food is better!!! Our ward had signs to hang on the door when you didn't want visitors.

I promise you when your babies arrive this will all have been so worth it.

Aimee, I hope they didn't owe you any carpooling!!! I had a flatmate that was on the run after escaping from prison for murdering someone!!!

 

I can't tell you how many breakdowns I had when I was on hospital bedrest. It is the 2nd hardest thing I have ever had to do, second only to my girls being in the NICU. As the PP wrote, there is light at the end of the tunnel, and soon this will all be a memory. Stay strong for those precious little babies. And remember, its OK to cry! You can do this! It will all be worth it in the end! Good Luck!

 

It's the bedrest, and pregnancy in general. I did a whole lot of crying in the hospital, you just never know what's going to bring it on. Hang in ther, it's so hard but so worth it.

I agree with Kyrstyn, it's the second hardest thing I've ever done with the first being having my girls in the NICU.

 

Oh Honey, I know all too well what your experiencing. I was in the hospital for 8 weeks and 1 day. It was
so hard at times. But ya know, it made me aprreciate things more. I cried so much, but I also hung in there!
I had great support from friends and family. And that contraction monitoring!!! Aghh... I know they just have
to get 15 minutes. And your so uncomfortable, I was like get this S%$@ off me!! Well I didn't say it like that LOL!
But hang in there ok, my girls came at 32 weeks and 2 days. They sent me home just shy of 32 weeks. I went into
labor 4 days lator. My Mom thinks they would of cooked a little longer if I stayed in the hospital--- who knows?
All is well. Their home now . Your not that far off, at least you are this far. It was very emotional for me when
I had to go in at 23 1/2 weeks. So you can do it Mama!! Your getting close!!

Tina

 

When I was on hospital bed rest I was feeling really down one day, so to try to keep from crying I called one of my friends, when she answered I started bawling my eyes out...she just let me cry...what a good friend! It will be over before you know it...keep baking!

 

I've been on hospital bedrest for 20 days and will be on it for the duration of my pregnancy (facing life-threatening TTTS for my babies and one very bad cervix). I've been bedresting at home or hospital since March 14th, missing my children and 'normalcy'. . . Your emotions are normal. I've tried to mostly keep a positive outlook, resign myself, and keep humor going. BUT I have days and moments where I just feel anxious and like crying. . . frustrated, scared and all that. I indulge myseelf in crying those moments and days. I find I don't want anyone around those days, but the nurses here seem to understand. I've had at least one nurse cry with me!

I dislike having visitors just "pop" in, unless it was very close family. I've grown tired of being gawked at and questioned by well-meaning people who will not ever seem to understand TTTS or what it is like to be in my shoes. I don't like being pitied by these people either. So I had DH start telling people (and I did some telling myself) that I only like one visitor every other day for no more than 30 minutes. I also asked for people to call DH because my phone was ringing off the hook and I could get no peace. The nurses can also put a door sign up that restricts visitors. . . don't feel rude about doing this. I confess that even well-meaning people have jaded me, but I try to keep in mind that they are just blissfully ignorant about what I am going through.

I remember the first time I was hospitalized back in March, would wake up early in the morn so I could bawl my eyes out without interruption. I'd cry like a baby, read my Bible and go back to sleep. I see it as very normal in this situation. I'd pull myself up by the bootstraps after getting it all out and try to get on with determination.

It is hard. Not the "vacation" some will suggest it is to you. Combine the physical changes with the emotional stresses, and it's like a weird game of "Survivor". . . you do have to play mindgames with yourself.

Y'all only have to be monitored 15 minutes!?! I'm so jealous! I'm strapped up 30 minutes to an hour (if the nurse's don't pay attention) plus spot checked at least 4 other times during the day. My twins are called "the worst behaved" on the hall because they are so active and won't stay on the monitor. So the nurses literally tie the monitors on with four or five straps in knots. . . sometimes tightly. . . and make me stay still in positions that make my hips hurt bad. It feels like a bad girdle and that I'm about to explode. (Not all the nurses are this cruel, but the one I have on the weekends is terribly rough.) A few days ago, we got an excellent monitor reading so I didn't have to worry about being monitored for so long again later on in the day, but when the night nurse spot-checked right before bed, she got all panicky because one of the babies had shot up to 190-something but came back down (he was really active), and she made me stay on the monitor until midnight! I was EXHAUSTED because the night nurses this past week had all been keeping me up past midnight for various reasons. . . and the morning nurses MAKE me get up at 8 am to test my blood sugar and get my breakfast tray. It was misery.

Anyway, it's definitely a rollercoaster being in here. Cry if you feel like it! It definitely can feel out of control. . . nurses prodding you, visitors stopping in when it's best for them, food coming when you aren't hungry, etc. Lots of unpredictability which can make a person feel out of control and frustrated.

Hang in there! You're in a good spot!!

 

:hug99: That is rough. I appreciate being at home on bedrest. I am trying not to take it for granted. I know that if things get worse they will be sending me to the hospital...and not the one near my home. They will be sending me to Philly which is over an hour away. I guess it is good because at least I will not have to deal with many visitors!!!!

I hope that the time goes by quickly for you!

 

I completely relate to your post! I was on hospital bedrest because of a shortened cervix for 44 days. I hated the monitoring. It always took at least an hour. Once the nurse monitored me for 1.5 hours in the afternoon, but it legally didn't pass because the doctor wasn't satisfied because it was so sporadic from the babies moving, so I had to be monitored again and that took place from 10:30 p.m. to 12:15 a.m.! I was in so much pain after I thought for sure the babies were coming that night.

When I hit 30 weeks the doctor allowed me to get up slowly and I went outside for the first time in 5 weeks in a wheelchair for 15 minutes! It was heavenly and my plan was to do that everyday from then on. Well.....the next day I was told that one of my roomates had MSRA (superbug) and I was put into isolation. I had never heard of MSRA and all the nurses were telling me it's the most awful thing, there's no cure etc. It was so difficult for me to see everyone approach me in gowns and masks and I wasn't able to leave the room. They made me feel like I was going to die! I kept it together in the hospital, until that point! The same day I had an u/s and Baby A showed low fluid. I cried hysterically in my room - no one could console me. I cried all day and all night - non-stop. Then I woke up in the morning and had a big leak, which scared the heck out of me, but turned out not to be amniotic fluid. So I took that as a sign that I needed to keep it together for my babies.

I'm now at home for th past few days on bedrest. My doctor figured I suffered enough and made me promise to do nothing at home. Home bedrest is so much better. No more pushing, poking, prodding. My ultrasound yesterday showed good fluid. So hopefully, I can hang on for a few more weeks.

When I left the hospital I told everyone I'm never breaking the law cause I can relate to what jail would feel like - lol.

It looks like you're nearing the finish line! You can do this! You've already done an amazing job.

Keep us posted!

Brooklyne xxx
31.4 weeks