FREAKED OUT SOON TO BE NEW MOMMY

[SIZE=10pt]As my due date gets more and more nearer I'm getting so worried and terrified that me or the kids will not make it. Please for all of you out there please pray us? I just really don't want anything to go wrong before during and after they are born. I cant help but be so terrified that its really getting to me. Ohh and along with that I need my relationship with God prayed for too cause I wanna be a good christian its just........I don't have a whole lot of faith, I'm a sinner, I don't know how to be a good christian, and how to put God first. My relationship with God has been a rocky one for sure but I never stopped believing that he existed. I pray a lot here lately especially since I'm so scared that I will die during or after my childrens birth. I know I do have a lot of anxiety issues believe me I know I'm the first one to admitt to it too. My anxiety is so bad that I think I am not going to make it, thats how bad my anxiety is. I know for a lot of women who are reading this don't understand, but please try to? I cant get it out of my head that I'm going to die. Some people are like well relax, and just not think about it. Well too bad I cant not think, and not believe that its going to happen. My anxiety has spirled out of control. I think that I will die from mainly either a blood clot, or paripartum cardioerithemy. You have no idea how hard life is with those thoughts. But no mother to be cannot say that they aren't scared. I can honestly say I'm most worried about where I will go if ya ketch my drift if something were to happen. That would be why I'm trying to change my relationship with God and be a good christian. I need prayers I really do. I know I sound crazy, oh well. I'm trying to reach out to whomever will listen and help me. You can reach me through my e-mail addy [email protected], through facebook, on here, or on myspace. :unsure:


Thank you for all your friendship and support! Hope everything is going well for those of you who read this![/SIZE]

 

You have made it to 32 weeks! Way to go! You are doing just fine. Everyone has anxiety during their pregnancy. It is a very stressful time. As soon as those babies get here - you'll forget all about your stresses. Keep up your prayers - God is listening and he will answer the way you need Him to. We are all sinners and he gives us blessings (like your new babies) despite that. You are already a wonderful mother to your babies and you'll just get better and better as time goes on. Concentrate on the positive outcomes, not the what-if's. I will pray for you.

 

Do you have anyone you can talk to about this? It really sounds like that would benefit you. :hug:

 

Please, please, please find a professional to talk to. Whether it be a doctor,, a pastor, anyone who can help you through this. Anxiety during pregnancy, especially one with twins is totally normal, but if yours is as bad as you say it is, I think it is very important for both your health and your babies that you talk to someone. I wish you the best.

 

I am so sorry you are so stressed. I do understand and I am wishing you some relief. I agree with pp that looking to get some help would be good. Most insurances will pay for it and alot of employers have a program as well. God does listen and he is always waiting with open arms at anypoint you are ready to seek him.

 

:hug: You are doing an awesome job. You have grown those babies all the way to 32 weeks! God is providing for you and your babies. He has been and always will be in control. I agree that it would be a good idea to find someone to talk to about your fears and anxiety. Can you reach out to a counselor or someone connected with a local church?

PS-I actually had a blood clot in my lung during my pg... and I'm still here kickin' and so are my babies! So even if you do have a complication in your pg, it doesn't mean you're going to die. Modern medicine is a wonderful thing.