feeling guilty

After my huge depressing ordeal on Monday I was having some bad contractions. For those that don't know I basically found my little dog in my duffle bag dead after a long drive and she was in the trunk. Full story in another thread on second page of the parenting forum. Well because of my nonstop crying for a day I was put on some meds to calm me down but they make me sooooo sleepy. I'm probably going to take a nap after writing this. I just feel awful and guilty about my dog and now the fact that my son doesn't get to really have his mom fully. Its the two of us during the day and I've been making him play in his room or watch a movie.
Yesterday we went to my fiances house and me and my fiance got into it because he treats my son a little harsh for my liking. I feel awful for getting them involved and just want to stay home but I'm just not being as good of a mother because of eveything. I'm soooo stressed right now and taking the meds are good for that but they make me so tired.

That's all I really had to say.
I'm sorry to unleash everything on all of you, but I just moved here and aside from my fiances family I have no one. I used to be able to relax holding my little dog but now I don't even have her.

 

I'm sorry again about your dog. :hug99: I read your post and that was so sad. It is hard to feel guilty with our older children, I still feel guilty with my 7 year old, so it never ends (unfortunately) but a twin pregnancy takes a lot out of you. I'm sorry the meds are making you so sleepy. :hug99:

 

You need lots of big :hug99: right now....
I am SO sorry you are going through such a rought time & I KNOW it will all get better with time.
Your son will be just fine playing or watching videos while you get some much needed and deserved rest.
Please take care of yourself :love0028:

 

QUOTE(Kimani @ Aug 7 2008, 03:34 PM) [snapback]919195[/snapback]
I'm sorry to unleash everything on all of you


:hug99: That's what we are here for, to listen. :hug99: I'm sorry that happened to your dog. I wish I had some way to help you not feel guilty and like a bad mom. You are definately not a bad mom. In the grand scheme of things, this is just a little piece of time. One week of playing in his room or watching movies will not replace all the good weeks where he had your full attention. :hug99: He will be okay, now we just have to make sure Momma is okay. I'm sorry the pills are making you tired. Have you called your doctor and asked for something else? As far as the "talk" with your fiance, I hope he understands that you are under alot of stress right now. Maybe when things calm down you two can revisit the subject and talk it out some more, at home. I hope things get a bit easier for you soon. :hug99: :hug99:

 

I am so sorry about your dog and all the stress you are going through right now. :hug99: We are here for you anytime you need to vent.:hug99:

 

:hug99:

Hope thing turn around for you....so sorry about your doggie.

 

I'm sorry you're going through these, especially when pregnancy itself isn't easy. I have two mini schnauzers, and I also feel extremely guilty towards them because I can't cuddle, walk, shower and play with them like I used to. But somehow or another, they seem to know that I'm pregnant, and will often sniff my tummy and just lie around me when I'm resting. I'm sure they know we still love them the same, just that things will be a little different for now, and that they'll be very happy to see the new additions to the family when your twins arrive!!

As for your son and fiance, I think a little tension is inevitable, just make sure you don't get overly stressed out because of that cos it ain't gonna help out much. :hug99: :hug99:

 

Thanks everyone. I'm just having an extremely difficult time dealing with the death of my dog. And weird at it sounds she was like a child to me and was there for me when I literally had nobody else.

Stress just keeps piling up. Just found out the the house we want to by isn't up to code on its plumbing and that my fiance makes too much by himself to qualify for the loan he went for and our stupid realtor didn't know any of this! We live/rent a house where the plumbing is completely screwed (I have to use the bathroom at the neighbors!).

I have been trying my best with all this but I may soon be in the booby hatch, and I can't take these pills anymore as I just sleep all day and don't get a thing done.

To top it off I had my DR appt scheduled at 1:45, they called and had to change it to 11:30, which meant I had to rush to get to town and bring my son with me. I've been waiting here on the office since 11:30, its now almost 1:30 to see my doc with my son who is bored to tears and making me a little edgy.
Times like these I want my mother.

 

QUOTE(Kimani @ Aug 8 2008, 03:18 PM) [snapback]920866[/snapback]
Stress just keeps piling up. Just found out the the house we want to by isn't up to code on its plumbing and that my fiance makes too much by himself to qualify for the loan he went for and our stupid realtor didn't know any of this! We live/rent a house where the plumbing is completely screwed (I have to use the bathroom at the neighbors!).



To top it off I had my DR appt scheduled at 1:45, they called and had to change it to 11:30, which meant I had to rush to get to town and bring my son with me. I've been waiting here on the office since 11:30, its now almost 1:30 to see my doc with my son who is bored to tears and making me a little edgy.
Times like these I want my mother.

:hug99:

Sorry about the house. :hug99:

 

Im sorry :hug99:
Hang in there OK?

 

QUOTE(tamaras @ Aug 8 2008, 04:04 PM) [snapback]920939[/snapback]
Im sorry :hug99:
Hang in there OK?



Thanks. I'll be working on it.
I talked to my Dr. about much of this.