Everyone gets to enjoy my babies....but me :(

I feel like everyone around me is enjoying my babies, everyone but me. Don't get me wrong, I do enjoy them, just not like everyone else does. Family comes in, is around a few hours at a time, passes them around, feeds one with no worry of the other screaming the whole time, will change a diaper again no worry of what the other baby is doing. Just gets to spend a bit of time and walk away thinking it is all so easy. I am here 24/7. I am here with both crying to be fed, both crying b/c of wet diapers. I am here up most of the night b/c for some reason at night they sleep really badly. During the day they are usually playing the game of one awake and one asleep. Their Nana comes over in the evening and swears it is her touch that gets them to sleep(yes it makes me feel like crap to hear over and over "oh all you need was your nana" No, they just sleep the best in the evening hours, even my husband has noticed.

So when will I get to enjoy them like everyone else? I love them so much and I treasure the moments we have to together. I love laying in my bed with them during the day and having them both by my side and the two of them looking at me. It is my favorite time of time. Just seems my favorite times are a lot less than everyone else. Makes me feel like a bad mom, like I am doing something wrong. Maybe once I can get more sleep I will enjoy more.

Dianna

 

Being sleep deprived certainly plays a role in how you are feeling emotionally (that and having just given birth less than 2 weeks ago ... but just you wait, when they get a bit older, all they'll want is you- nana's touch will have nothing on their mama, so don't worry- it will get better- in fact I'd be willing to bet that someday you'll wish they would go to someone other than you- though that's probably quite a ways off- because nothing compares to the love you feel when you feel your childs love! Hang in there and get some sleep!!!

 

Honestly, for me it got better when everyone left and I WAS alone with them. When people were around, keeping my babies awake, waking them when they were sleeping, etc. And then they would sleep like crap all night--It drove me nuts. I almost threw my MIL out of the house it got so bad!

When I'm alone with them, *I* control how much stimulation they get! And usually their sleep (and mine) are better for it.

 

Can I second that last post !! Everyone else kept them stimulated it was much better on my own. There are a few draw backs of twins & it can feel like you can't just be lone with them because you could use the help, but you also just want to hold both your babies all the time. Spend more mornings in bed with your two next to you it will heel your heart.

Heather

 

Dianna, it gets better. I felt like you do know. I got the same 'I guess they needed their nana...' remarks too. I felt like I was missing out on the time to enjoy them. For me it got better when everyone went home and it was just me and the girls during the day which happened for me around one month.

 

I pretty much didn't enjoy ANYTHING at that age! Newborns are just not very enjoyable, IMO - unless you're just visiting and holding a sleeping baby for a couple hours, then going home to your house where it's quiet and you can do what you want and sleep all night.

That said, I wonder if all your visitors would be willing to help in ways that would let you go off and have some nice, quiet, one-on-one bonding time with one baby at a time? They could be "on call" for one baby so that YOU could go curl up with the other and marvel at those tiny fingernails and eyelashes.

 

Okay, first you are sleep deprived, so it's a lot harder for you. Second, they are only a week old and still have night and day confused. I know when I was expecting, my babies slept during the day and kept me up at night.

I think it's great that everyone wants to come over, but you need help with the house and getting some rest, not with holding the babies. If "Nana" is going to come over all the time, put her to work. When I came home with the twins, my mother and my sisters/sils took turns coming over. They would help with some of the stuff I just wasn't used to (bathing the twins) and my household stuff. My mom did so much laundry for me those first few weeks! She helped me organize the gifts, etc so I could send out my thank yous. She let me lay down on the couch for some sleep while she was there. When my friends had their first child, they actually put a message on their answering machine to say..."You've reached (name), we are enjoying our new baby and will not be answering the phone or accepting visitors between the hours of 1-4, we will return your call when we get a chance"

Good Luck!!

 

You are a week into it and need to give yourself more credit. You just carried them, delivered them and now are taking care of them. Your hormones are all over the place and you are very sensitive. Don't beat yourself up over it. I know that everyone says it will get easier and it will. But for right now you just need to focus on taking care of them the best you can and learn that if one is crying because you are taking care of the other, that is just the way it will be. There is nothing bad about that. You are one person and they are two...you do the best you can.

We all are here for you to help you and we certainly btdt.

HTH and GL

Damiane'


ETA: Also, all 3 of you need to get used to each other all the while they are learning to take in this whole new scary world around them.

 

Ooooooooo that "needing Nana's touch" comment made me reply to this - I have heard comments like this from MIL since my girls arrived, and it nearly killed my spirit those first few GOD AWFUL weeks. Please know how much I feel your pain, and know that it gets better day by day. My girls just began social smiling, and that makes it one million times easier to tolerate the constant flow of traffic and "needing nana" comments. You are in those first intolerable weeks where your job is to stay semi-sane while keeping those babies going, and I am so sorry that the barrage of people doesn't make that any easier for you.

In my humble opinion, there isn't much to enjoy those first few weeks - I just hung on by my fingertips and prayed for time to pass. It did, and as I said it is already better.

PM anytime

Amy

 

Twins are hard work!!!! Mine were numbers 4 and 5 so I was not lacking for baby experience, but 2 of them made everything be on a learning curve!!! I always think I don't know how I would do it if they were my first!!! Anyway, right now you are tired and basically doing maintenence- feeding, burping, changing, etc. You will have many moments of joy, but right now it is hard! The interesting thing that I've learned with my other children is how as they got older I missed those newborn days (again I kniow that it was only one baby), but on my worst days with the twins I tried to have that attitude, because time goes so fast. I'm sure you're doing a great job and remember you can do this. You were given 2 little miracles for a reason!!!!


Lisa

 

You are a good mama. Honestly, I didn't really "enjoy" the boys until they were older, say around 4 months when we were on a bit of a schedule. Before that, it was anyone's call on what would happen next.

The comments can be hurtful, but remember relatives are trying to feel important too (just like strangers and their uninvited comments when out in public). It's not fun though to listen to them...I've had my fair share and often get told how I'm doing everything wrong (of course, in a passive aggressive way I'm told these things which is even worse).

You are so early on...it will get better. Sleep helps too. The babies will grow and get "used" to things. Like pps, when family came over was the worse because the boys would get overstimulated and have complete meltdowns. Hang in there, and you are doing a great job.

 

Why dont you ask nana if she can give the babies that magical touch all night while you catch up on some sleep? When my MIL comes to vistit I hand over the babies and head for bed-trust me if you can trust her to do that you will have a whole different attitude after getting some rest. It does get better but it may possibly get a littel worse first...sorry. I am just now bonding with my babies because they finally quit crying all the time and are now half way enjoyable. I honestly was having a hard time liking them much at all the first few weeks. Give it some time and when people (especially family) come over to visit ask for help with things, they should be willing to do what it takes to help you get through this.
Thinking of you and wishing you the best!

 

I understand how you feel and it still happens at 1 year. My parents come by almost every night to see the kids. They get to sit and relax with one of the babies while I'm running around dealing with my 3-year old drama queen or getting something done. I especially feel like this when one of the twins is sick. Just once I would like to be able to sit down and hold my sick baby, but my mom will come over to help and her way of helping is to always take the sick one.

 

QUOTE(fuchsiagroan @ Mar 19 2008, 11:45 AM) [snapback]676453[/snapback]
I pretty much didn't enjoy ANYTHING at that age! Newborns are just not very enjoyable, IMO - unless you're just visiting and holding a sleeping baby for a couple hours, then going home to your house where it's quiet and you can do what you want and sleep all night.

That said, I wonder if all your visitors would be willing to help in ways that would let you go off and have some nice, quiet, one-on-one bonding time with one baby at a time? They could be "on call" for one baby so that YOU could go curl up with the other and marvel at those tiny fingernails and eyelashes.


I second that. The beginning is SO HARD! Try and take advantage of your visitors and spend some one on one time with a single baby ... or get some sleep!

Good luck, it gets better!

Erica

 

Everyone else said what I was going to say. You are sleep deprived and it makes everything more difficult. Also they are still so little and you are all getting to know each other. Plus caring for 2 newborns is a lot of thankless work. I remember the night the girls started smiling. All of a sudden the MONTHS of non-stop work were worth, but up until that point Dh and I would say "Man they are demanding and not at all grateful!"

I agree with everyone else about putting your 'helpers' to work in ways that will ACTUALLY HELP you! Yes someone can come over and hold a baby or change a diaper, but is that the kind of help you need right now? How about they come over and do some laundry or make you lunch? Hang in there. You will enjoy them more soon. :hug99:

 

My hormones are out of control LOL I felt better after the 5am feeding. My hubby got up to help me and I cried for a bit to him. He reassured me that I am doing a great job and Nana had nothing to do with them sleeping, that it was just when they were going to be sleeping, like every night.

Dianna

 

We do get our best sleep when no one else is here, including Daddy We just had our good morning nap that I look forward to every day. Feel a bit more refreshed....for now.

Dianna

QUOTE(heathertwins @ Mar 19 2008, 06:55 AM) [snapback]676430[/snapback]
Can I second that last post !! Everyone else kept them stimulated it was much better on my own. There are a few draw backs of twins & it can feel like you can't just be lone with them because you could use the help, but you also just want to hold both your babies all the time. Spend more mornings in bed with your two next to you it will heel your heart.

Heather

It did heal my heart today

Dianna

QUOTE(ca2pa2005 @ Mar 19 2008, 07:32 AM) [snapback]676439[/snapback]
Dianna, it gets better. I felt like you do know. I got the same 'I guess they needed their nana...' remarks too. I felt like I was missing out on the time to enjoy them. For me it got better when everyone went home and it was just me and the girls during the day which happened for me around one month.

I do appreciate family coming around. I know a lot of people have no family around, but at times it does make it harder.

Dianna

 

QUOTE(fuchsiagroan @ Mar 19 2008, 07:45 AM) [snapback]676453[/snapback]
I pretty much didn't enjoy ANYTHING at that age! Newborns are just not very enjoyable, IMO - unless you're just visiting and holding a sleeping baby for a couple hours, then going home to your house where it's quiet and you can do what you want and sleep all night.

That said, I wonder if all your visitors would be willing to help in ways that would let you go off and have some nice, quiet, one-on-one bonding time with one baby at a time? They could be "on call" for one baby so that YOU could go curl up with the other and marvel at those tiny fingernails and eyelashes.

I just want to say I am so glad i posted this last night, because I am not feeling so alone about it now. Knowing others have felt this way makes me not feel so bad. That is a good idea about spending the time with one baby while someone else is taking care of the other baby.



Dianna

 

QUOTE(moski @ Mar 19 2008, 07:48 AM) [snapback]676455[/snapback]
Okay, first you are sleep deprived, so it's a lot harder for you. Second, they are only a week old and still have night and day confused. I know when I was expecting, my babies slept during the day and kept me up at night.

I think it's great that everyone wants to come over, but you need help with the house and getting some rest, not with holding the babies. If "Nana" is going to come over all the time, put her to work. When I came home with the twins, my mother and my sisters/sils took turns coming over. They would help with some of the stuff I just wasn't used to (bathing the twins) and my household stuff. My mom did so much laundry for me those first few weeks! She helped me organize the gifts, etc so I could send out my thank yous. She let me lay down on the couch for some sleep while she was there. When my friends had their first child, they actually put a message on their answering machine to say..."You've reached (name), we are enjoying our new baby and will not be answering the phone or accepting visitors between the hours of 1-4, we will return your call when we get a chance"

Good Luck!!

Their nana has been good. She has been bringing dinner and stuff. That is a huge help. Most visitors have slowed down. The last visitor will be my mom. Which I am looking forward to. She will be staying for two weeks (she lives out of state) and I know she will be helpful,looking forward to it, but we have some more time. She doesn't get here till the 5th.

Dianna

 

QUOTE(b/gtwinmom07 @ Mar 19 2008, 07:58 AM) [snapback]676472[/snapback]
You are a week into it and need to give yourself more credit. You just carried them, delivered them and now are taking care of them. Your hormones are all over the place and you are very sensitive. Don't beat yourself up over it. I know that everyone says it will get easier and it will. But for right now you just need to focus on taking care of them the best you can and learn that if one is crying because you are taking care of the other, that is just the way it will be. There is nothing bad about that. You are one person and they are two...you do the best you can.

We all are here for you to help you and we certainly btdt.

HTH and GL

Damiane'
ETA: Also, all 3 of you need to get used to each other all the while they are learning to take in this whole new scary world around them.

I do tend to be hard on myself...would say I would work on that, but I have been this way my whole life LOL

Dianna

 

QUOTE(AimeeB @ Mar 19 2008, 08:44 AM) [snapback]676523[/snapback]
Ooooooooo that "needing Nana's touch" comment made me reply to this - I have heard comments like this from MIL since my girls arrived, and it nearly killed my spirit those first few GOD AWFUL weeks. Please know how much I feel your pain, and know that it gets better day by day. My girls just began social smiling, and that makes it one million times easier to tolerate the constant flow of traffic and "needing nana" comments. You are in those first intolerable weeks where your job is to stay semi-sane while keeping those babies going, and I am so sorry that the barrage of people doesn't make that any easier for you.

In my humble opinion, there isn't much to enjoy those first few weeks - I just hung on by my fingertips and prayed for time to pass. It did, and as I said it is already better.

PM anytime

Amy

Thank you I am so glad I posted b/c I would have thought it is just me. I am enjoying certain times. But they are few and far between compared to the times that are not enjoyable. I love it when they have just eaten and just want to cuddle on my chest. Dillon sleeps best laying on me which I do love, except at 3am when I need sleep. I love that at times only I can calm them, I love knowing they need their mommy. I am trying to focus on those times. But boy lack of sleep really does effect it all.


Dianna

 

QUOTE(motherto5 @ Mar 19 2008, 09:04 AM) [snapback]676550[/snapback]
Twins are hard work!!!! Mine were numbers 4 and 5 so I was not lacking for baby experience, but 2 of them made everything be on a learning curve!!! I always think I don't know how I would do it if they were my first!!! Anyway, right now you are tired and basically doing maintenence- feeding, burping, changing, etc. You will have many moments of joy, but right now it is hard! The interesting thing that I've learned with my other children is how as they got older I missed those newborn days (again I kniow that it was only one baby), but on my worst days with the twins I tried to have that attitude, because time goes so fast. I'm sure you're doing a great job and remember you can do this. You were given 2 little miracles for a reason!!!!
Lisa

The boys are my 3rd and 4th. But it has been a long time, my girls are 11 and 14 lol Yes, maintenance, that is what I do...getting them from one feeding to the next...one diaper change to the next...one day to the next.

Dianna

 

QUOTE(snoopytwins @ Mar 19 2008, 09:10 AM) [snapback]676559[/snapback]
You are a good mama. Honestly, I didn't really "enjoy" the boys until they were older, say around 4 months when we were on a bit of a schedule. Before that, it was anyone's call on what would happen next.

The comments can be hurtful, but remember relatives are trying to feel important too (just like strangers and their uninvited comments when out in public). It's not fun though to listen to them...I've had my fair share and often get told how I'm doing everything wrong (of course, in a passive aggressive way I'm told these things which is even worse).

You are so early on...it will get better. Sleep helps too. The babies will grow and get "used" to things. Like pps, when family came over was the worse because the boys would get overstimulated and have complete meltdowns. Hang in there, and you are doing a great job.

I have lucked out , so far, the boys are great when the house is full of people. They sleep through all noises. They don't have issues being passed around and so on.

Yes, it is important for family to feel important in their lives, trying to remember that LOL

Dianna

 

QUOTE(Lesley Anne @ Mar 19 2008, 09:15 AM) [snapback]676569[/snapback]
Why dont you ask nana if she can give the babies that magical touch all night while you catch up on some sleep? When my MIL comes to vistit I hand over the babies and head for bed-trust me if you can trust her to do that you will have a whole different attitude after getting some rest. It does get better but it may possibly get a littel worse first...sorry. I am just now bonding with my babies because they finally quit crying all the time and are now half way enjoyable. I honestly was having a hard time liking them much at all the first few weeks. Give it some time and when people (especially family) come over to visit ask for help with things, they should be willing to do what it takes to help you get through this.
Thinking of you and wishing you the best!

She actually suggested that. I can't do it yet. I have trouble even sleeping when their daddy has them. Just too soon.

Dianna

QUOTE(Leighann @ Mar 19 2008, 09:51 AM) [snapback]676664[/snapback]
Everyone else said what I was going to say. You are sleep deprived and it makes everything more difficult. Also they are still so little and you are all getting to know each other. Plus caring for 2 newborns is a lot of thankless work. I remember the night the girls started smiling. All of a sudden the MONTHS of non-stop work were worth, but up until that point Dh and I would say "Man they are demanding and not at all grateful!"

I agree with everyone else about putting your 'helpers' to work in ways that will ACTUALLY HELP you! Yes someone can come over and hold a baby or change a diaper, but is that the kind of help you need right now? How about they come over and do some laundry or make you lunch? Hang in there. You will enjoy them more soon. :hug99:

Ok, so waiting for smiles LOL

Dianna

 

Dianna,

You are an amazing mom!!!!

You are recouping from alot. And having alot of visitors can also be very tiring!!

Right now you are very tired, and that is hard enough.

You and your boys are on a learning curve, you are still learning about one another and it takes a bit of time.

I remember some of those comments from my family...it made me sooo mad, and I actually cried sometimes. DH was great with that, he had a great big shoulder for me to cry on

Your boys are a week old, things will start to work out better for you and you will start enjoying things more.

Remember, you are doing a fanastic mom, and no one will be better with your boys than you!!!

:hug99: :hug99:

Christine

 

Dianna I'm glad you're feeling better. It's amazing what a little crying, a little sleep and a little breathing can do! I have nothing original to say but some things are worth reiterating. First, try and remember that your body just made TWO human beings!!!! So - of course your hormones are jumping all over the place. And yes, the babies probably still have day/night confused, and will for a while. If you haven't read The Happiest Baby on The Block and seen the DVD, I HIGHLY recommend it.

It provides really concrete ways to soothe babies that were invaluable for us during the first months.

yes those first three months are a total blur of feeding/changing/soothing/feeding/changing/soothing.....and somehow, believe it or not, they pass. And although I never really liked reading 'it will get better, I promise" - the truth is it WILL get better. Sleep is key; if you can work it out with your Dh and your mom and whomever so you get at least ONE consecutive chunk a day it will make a HUGE difference.

As for the MIL comments - ooh, I know those. Mine was wonderful as well; came to stay for a week after i got out of the hospital (I was on hospital bedrest and in for a week after the girls; they were in for three weeks). And she came back at some point when the girls came home. The comments made me CRAZY (my favorite was the one about how my girls, BOTH of whom had reflux, never vomited when SHE fed them. I know I'm evil, but BOY was i happy the day one of them opened up and let the entire contents of her stomach onto MILs shirtfront!

I think it's really difficult, esp. for MIL's;after all, their own babies (our DH's) now have babies of their own, and obviously their attention is fixed there. Try to ignore most of it, what really bothers you, call her on it. I find that if i can be sane enough to tell people that what they are saying is bothering me or ask them 'WHY they are saying it - most of the time they shut up. Or tell your DH to tell her.

We swaddled ours in the Miracle Blanket and she nearly had a conniption when she saw it, the 'baby straight jacket'. Well, i told her straight out that it soothed them and that's what we were choosing to do - and she shut up.

But mostly - do try and get a few moments with each. It's one of the particular challenges of being a twin mom; you are so often torn. But remember, as one poster here writes "if they're crying, they're breathing'. You will find yourself looking back at moments in the middle of the night when their tiny heads were resting on your shoulder and you felt their soft curved cheeks against yours and will wonder where that time flew to.

And remember, a long hot shower works MIRACLES! Good luck and yes, one of the BEST things about this board is realizing that even though you may be isolated at home, you are NOT alone in what you are experiencing.

 

QUOTE(Chris02 @ Mar 19 2008, 11:46 AM) [snapback]676921[/snapback]
Dianna,

You are an amazing mom!!!!

You are recouping from alot. And having alot of visitors can also be very tiring!!

Right now you are very tired, and that is hard enough.

You and your boys are on a learning curve, you are still learning about one another and it takes a bit of time.

I remember some of those comments from my family...it made me sooo mad, and I actually cried sometimes. DH was great with that, he had a great big shoulder for me to cry on

Your boys are a week old, things will start to work out better for you and you will start enjoying things more.

Remember, you are doing a fanastic mom, and no one will be better with your boys than you!!!

:hug99: :hug99:

Christine


I think sometimes I forget they are only just over a week old. I need to remember that. Some days it seems like we just got home from the hospital, other days(or should I say nights) it feels like they have been here forever lol

Dianna

 

Yes some sleep, crying and some coffee can help LOL

I have heard of the Happiest Baby on the Block...will make hubby go and get it next time he is out running errands. Have heard lots of good stuff about it, maybe it is time to start reading

I do like reading that it will get better...helps to know others have made it through all of it.

Oh I don't think that is bad of you at all regarding the reflux and the spitting up. I don't think some realize what they are saying or how it effects us.

I do try to have time with each baby. Much easier in the evening when my hubby is home, as we switch off. He likes to make sure he gets equal time too. He is always worried he will hold or feed one more than the other lol

Dianna


QUOTE(Jordari @ Mar 19 2008, 11:57 AM) [snapback]676941[/snapback]
Dianna I'm glad you're feeling better. It's amazing what a little crying, a little sleep and a little breathing can do! I have nothing original to say but some things are worth reiterating. First, try and remember that your body just made TWO human beings!!!! So - of course your hormones are jumping all over the place. And yes, the babies probably still have day/night confused, and will for a while. If you haven't read The Happiest Baby on The Block and seen the DVD, I HIGHLY recommend it.

It provides really concrete ways to soothe babies that were invaluable for us during the first months.

yes those first three months are a total blur of feeding/changing/soothing/feeding/changing/soothing.....and somehow, believe it or not, they pass. And although I never really liked reading 'it will get better, I promise" - the truth is it WILL get better. Sleep is key; if you can work it out with your Dh and your mom and whomever so you get at least ONE consecutive chunk a day it will make a HUGE difference.

As for the MIL comments - ooh, I know those. Mine was wonderful as well; came to stay for a week after i got out of the hospital (I was on hospital bedrest and in for a week after the girls; they were in for three weeks). And she came back at some point when the girls came home. The comments made me CRAZY (my favorite was the one about how my girls, BOTH of whom had reflux, never vomited when SHE fed them. I know I'm evil, but BOY was i happy the day one of them opened up and let the entire contents of her stomach onto MILs shirtfront!

I think it's really difficult, esp. for MIL's;after all, their own babies (our DH's) now have babies of their own, and obviously their attention is fixed there. Try to ignore most of it, what really bothers you, call her on it. I find that if i can be sane enough to tell people that what they are saying is bothering me or ask them 'WHY they are saying it - most of the time they shut up. Or tell your DH to tell her.

We swaddled ours in the Miracle Blanket and she nearly had a conniption when she saw it, the 'baby straight jacket'. Well, i told her straight out that it soothed them and that's what we were choosing to do - and she shut up.

But mostly - do try and get a few moments with each. It's one of the particular challenges of being a twin mom; you are so often torn. But remember, as one poster here writes "if they're crying, they're breathing'. You will find yourself looking back at moments in the middle of the night when their tiny heads were resting on your shoulder and you felt their soft curved cheeks against yours and will wonder where that time flew to.

And remember, a long hot shower works MIRACLES! Good luck and yes, one of the BEST things about this board is realizing that even though you may be isolated at home, you are NOT alone in what you are experiencing.

 

We had very small babies so noone was aloud over till they were like 4 weeks old and i was just fine with that. It gave me time to bond with them and not everyone else all over them. My DH was off with me and we just soaked up the time. Just know that it will get easier and they get to come in and enjoy and go home... SO dont feel bad, your doing a great job...

 

I haven't taken the time (what time?) to read all the responses, but I feel the EXACT same way! I was just telling DH that I have a hard time enjoying the boys because I feel like it's all business, all the time. If I'm not feeding them, I'm changing them, shoving pacis back in mouths, rocking, etc. Then whatever time I have left, I have the "do I eat, sleep, or shower?" dilemma.

We haven't had too many visitors, but that's mainly because we don't want to expose the boys to the flu pandemic. That, and I've been feeling much like a hermit - not really wanting visitors.

What can I do to enjoy my boys more??? I only have about 3 weeks left before I have to go back to work - though I'll only be at work for 7-8 weeks before getting to be home for another 10 weeks (oh the joys of being a teacher!). I desperately want to enjoy my babies, to want to play with them, to not have a perpetual headache... because I know they will be big before I know it!

You guys are the best!

Becky

 

QUOTE(bstone716 @ Mar 19 2008, 06:46 PM) [snapback]677863[/snapback]
I haven't taken the time (what time?) to read all the responses, but I feel the EXACT same way! I was just telling DH that I have a hard time enjoying the boys because I feel like it's all business, all the time. If I'm not feeding them, I'm changing them, shoving pacis back in mouths, rocking, etc. Then whatever time I have left, I have the "do I eat, sleep, or shower?" dilemma.

We haven't had too many visitors, but that's mainly because we don't want to expose the boys to the flu pandemic. That, and I've been feeling much like a hermit - not really wanting visitors.

What can I do to enjoy my boys more??? I only have about 3 weeks left before I have to go back to work - though I'll only be at work for 7-8 weeks before getting to be home for another 10 weeks (oh the joys of being a teacher!). I desperately want to enjoy my babies, to want to play with them, to not have a perpetual headache... because I know they will be big before I know it!

You guys are the best!

Becky

Becky sorry to hear you are dealing with the same thing. *hugs*

Dianna