Emotional mommy post

Okay, so I was flipping through the boys photo albums the other night and it just washed over me that they are almost a year old. I brought home 2 tiny little pink babies that should have still been in the womb just 10 months ago!!! THere was one picture of me giving James a bath and I was HOLDING HIM IN ONE HAND!!!!!! I look back at these pictures and wonder how the time has gone by so fast.

I remember sitting in the floor of their room crying, trying to feed them when the reflux was so bad and calling my husband to get home because I needed help...and now they are in high chairs, laughing and giggling through the whole meal.

I remember looking at the two of them laying side by side in the pack n play wondering how in the h*ll I was going to do this by myself...and now I watch the two of them standing in the pack n play without my help.

These thoughts hit me hardest when I am giving them their last bottle at night and we look at each other and smile or when I am carrying someone to another room and they hold onto me with those sweet, soft little hands and play with my hair. James will sometimes just stop what he is doing and give me the sweetest smile and then go right back to whatever he is playing with. Will crawls over to me and pokes me in the nose with his fat little finger and laughs so hard. These moments are priceless and I want to STOP THE CLOCK!!!

When you get pregnant all you hear about is how hard the sleepless nights are, colic, breast vs. bottle, schedule or no schedule (had to throw that in - hee hee), but NO ONE prepares you for the hardest part of all - watching them grow up and become more independent. I know, it's not like they are going off to college or anything (God help me now), but my babies aren't "babies" anymore and it's really hard, for me at least. I remember thinking that I couldn't wait until they were x-months old, but now that they are, I find myself wishing for more "baby" days.

Ok, I'll stop now, but new mommies or mommies-to-be, cherish and treasure EACH DAY, because while they may be dragging on right now and you want to run from the house screaming, they will pass in the blink of an eye and I mean a blink.

Here are some pics of my 10 month old boys. Like my sig says - I can't imagine my life without twins!!!


http://www.kodakgallery.com/I.jsp?c=185afm...1&y=-n36soo

 

Thanks for sharing. You brought tears to my eyes! :cray: Isn't this just the greatest job ever?! :wub:

eta: OMGosh, I just realized I forgot to say...your boys are GORGEOUS!!

 

Very sweet post. I could've written it word for word. My boys were born on 4/10 so I am having those same feelings. I honestly don't remember a whole lot about those first 2-3 months. I wish I had taken more pics, even though I took a million. I want the clock to slow down b/c the days seem to pass too fast now. I remember a time when I thought DH and I would never have a moment together alone again where I didn't want to sleep. Now, the boys are in bed at 7 pm tonight and I am missing them!!!

Sorry, I didn't mean to hijack your thread. Just wanted to say, I understand!!!!

 

You have some cute little men. They are so adorable. It is very amazing how fast they grow up.

 

:cray: Very sweet post. And what precious little guys you have there. :wub:

 

That was beautiful! :cray:

 

I couldn't agree more, they are a miracle! I just wanted to crawl through the computer and give your boys a big hug, they are sooo cute, and their faces have so much character. I too couldn't think of life without my boys.

 

Awww, DH and I are going through this too. We can't wait for them to be old enough to play with their big brother but they are our babies, our last ones (I hope!) and soon they will be one. Where did the last year go?

 

They are gorgeous! And thank you for reminding us to slow down and enjoy the ride...I needed that after my rough day with my girls. They are almost 5 months and I can't remember the 1st 3, but I vow to let it all sink in!

 

oh, I'm right with you! I just want them to be my teeny tiny babies again!!!!! I HATE that they have to grow up! One of these days they're going to go to school, and then one day to college, and heaven help me, get married and LEAVE ME! :cray:

ETA- Oh I LOVE those pictures!!!! SUCH sweet little guys!

 

awww! that was so sweet! and you have such handsome little boys!

 

Mine are only 7 weeks and i already feel that way.

 

My DH laughs at me when it makes me sad to look at pics from the first couple of weeks. Don't get me wrong they are getting more fun everyday but I miss those little 5 lb babies that were so small and precious. I want more already.

 

What beautiful boys! I love their little rugby outfits. I totally know what you mean about it going to fast. In less than a month my little girls are turning one and it was just yesterday that they were tiny 3lb babies who looked so helpless. Now they are walking (kinda!) and talking (kinda! see my ah oh! post), and I'm sitting here wondering when did they get so big and independent. Its definitely bitter sweet. I'm so proud of my munchkins, but it makes me sad to say goodbye to all little teeny tiny baby things (maybe because these two will probably be our only children).

 

More April babies here ... my grandsons will be one on April 4th. I know my DD is feeling much the same way you are. Babies grow up way too fast!

James and Will are so precious! And I was surprised to see so many teeth, lol! Our little guys just got their first two bottom teeth within the past month, with no signs of top teeth yet.

Congrats on such beautiful boys, those big darks eyes will make many girls' hearts swoon in the years to come!

 

Oh, what cuties! I love those chubby feet.

It's amazing, isn't it... One minute you're juggling two wailing newborns, and 5 minutes feels like 5 years, and next thing you know they're almost 1!

 

I'm right there with you...and closer to the 1 year mark! It's an amazing ride for sure. I've also enjoyed watching my husband evolve...though I get irritated at him for leaving open pee diapers on the floor all the time, he also is the best mr. mom ever! (he's the sitter for now because he got laid off his construction job!)

 

I'm going through this already! I was so anxious for them to roll over and now that they can, I know it will be only a few short months until they are crawling. I'm already getting the baby bug for #3/4! I think I'm nuts!

Your boys are sooo cute! The toothy grin was my favorite pic!

 

I feel this way about my 16 and 10 year old boys too and I try not to think about the girls growing up. I think that IS the hardest part. Letting go is not easy. whether it is letting go of a hand when they stand on their own or letting them go out for an hour over curfew, it is still hard.

 

your ost made me tear up because mine are about 2 weeks younger than yours and i too feel this same way. It has been heart wrenching at times to me. I love them so much and i too can no imagine my life without them. I have serioulsy loved it from the start... It really has never been that hard for me at all... I am glad i have cherished every minute because those minutes i never get back. Ugh now i feel all sad.

 

Thank so you much to everyone for the sweet comments about my boys...I think they are pretty darn cute too!

After seeing everyone's pictures I gotta say that the Twinstuff website has THE MOST ADORABLE CHILDREN I have ever seen. We are all just so blessed...