Confessions of a Sleep Deprived FY Momma

So, an interesting(and very popular!) thread popped up in the Second Year Forum a couple of weeks ago(thanks to one of our mods Liesel-girls!), and she made some 'confessions' about the not so beautiful or perfect side of being a mom! Well what do you know? There are a lot of us out there with stories to share!

This will be a thread to share with us your :gah: :silly: :crazy: :spy: :wacko: :huh: :blush: moments in your life as a sleep deprived FY momma.

Have fun!

 

I think I just gave my first confession; I put my babies to sleep on their stomachs.
I only bathe them once or twice a week, even though they could really use it more.
I hate, hate hate hate, my pp body.
Even though I was so confident I was going to exclusively breast feed, I gave up at six weeks after nearly going crazy, and now breast feed them both half of the time.
I find myself wishing I didn't have twins. Not that I don't want both of them, but that they weren't born at the same time. I wish I could spend more one on one time with them; I feel so torn between them.

 

i forgot to buckle the girls into their car seats once. i still feel sick about that.

i don't mind my stretch marks or my twin skin (they seem like badges of honor to me, in a weird way) but i hate how saggy my boobs are now. they used to be so perky & lovely, and now, well, they're not.

i discovered i need routine - even more than the babies do. i was a mess for the first fourth months until we got something more predictable going. i hated everything about those first four months.

 

The thing that stuck out in my mind the most was the one day when they were crying and I could not figure out why, they had been changed and I swore I fed them but after 25 minutes of crying, I checked the refrigerator and sure enough, I had not fed them. I felt so stupid and so bad!!!

 

one colicky evening (after not having slept the night before or all day during the day) I lost my mind and as they were both crying I was holding the binky in DS's mouth and holding DD and screaming "shut up shut up shut up" as I was crying hysterically at the same time...

 

I have propped bottles on pretty much everything including my foot to try and feed both babies at the same time.

I put the babies in their carseats and put on Baby Einstein with bottles propped so I can get ready to leave and feed them at the same time.

I love it when they go down to bed for the night because I can finally have some time to myself.

I go on the internet while they are awake and playing on the floor.

I swaddled until past six months because they slept so much better and I didn't want to stop it.

I co-slept after the first night at home even though I swore I would never do it because I needed the sleep and they slept better with us.


I'll think of more. I love this thread!!!! :Clap: :Clap: :Clap:

 

I forgot to buckle Jake into his car seat once and cried for 5 hours full of guilt. Of course I came on here right away and people made me feel better!

I used frozen breast milk that was probably past the time it should have been frozen for, but I worked so darn hard for it I wasn't going to let it be wasted.

I was so lonely at times that I talked to my kids like they could talk back.

 

I let them sleep on their stomaches.
I propped bottles with towels all the time.
Once, I spilled a BM bottle and mopped it up with a towel and wrung it out back into the bottle. I worked hard for that!
I WISHED they would watch TV!
I let my older kids hold them just to get a break!
They slept in high chairs, swing, bouncy seat, ANYWHERE they would sleep.
After my c-section, my worst depression was in the morning. So I planned my oxycodone pill so I could take one in the morning. It got me in a better mood!

 

This is fun to read as I completely feel the same way about may of the PP....but here we go:

1. Try as hard as I can to keep my b/g twins on a schedule, but who's kidding themselves...they're two different people!! All h#*& usually breaks loose in the evening because somebody is overtired despite the efforts of following HSHHC....
2. Time for myself....what's that??
3. Missing PP body....stomach, breasts, hips--you name it...but learning to adjust...now if I had time to work out...
4. Go out during the week--rarely. Their naps are priority. **sigh**
5. Evening without the kid's to spend time with DH is few and far between.
6. Dreading the mobile stage. I had to admit it as I'm scared as can be about how the $*#& I'm goinng to handle it!
7. Love my LO's like no other, but am secretly jelaous of my friends with singletons since one baby would be such a breeze and could go do so much more!!
8. Friends with singletons don't understand how hard it is to get out of the house in a short amount of time--even for coffee! Most of the time it isn't worth it....for unhappy, cranky babies!
9. Absolutely love my LO's, DH and my life as it is and wouldn't change it for the world!!

 

I always am propping the bottles. I did it once at our friend's house and she made a comment that that wasn't good for them. I felt guilty, but then again. She has only had kids one at a time. It is hard when the girls are both hungry and DS is quiet. Quiet usually = trouble!!

 

QUOTE(june07girl @ Apr 6 2009, 12:44 PM) [snapback]1261095[/snapback]
I go on the internet while they are awake and playing on the floor.


Is this wrong? I did this all the time! It was a sad day in my house when I had to take the laptop out of the living room because the girls could pull up and try to type.

QUOTE(MamaKimberlee @ Apr 6 2009, 01:15 PM) [snapback]1261152[/snapback]
I WISHED they would watch TV!


Me too!

Oh and to add one more- after two days being home, Ana woke up one night screaming. We'd never really heard her cry before (we always had to wake them for a bottle). Dh and I just couldn't figure out why she was upset. Silly first time parents never thought to check her diaper. DUH! Imagine that, after a diaper change and a swaddle, she fell back asleep.

 

I heard phantom cries for the first 3 months and thought I might need to be institutionalized!

In the middle of the night I would give them the rest of an unfinished bottle that had been sitting there who knows how long.

Sometimes right before a nap I smell poop but just pretend I didn't so I don't have to change them.

At one point sleeping pills was the only way I could fall asleep because my brain was on overload.

If having a drink every night to relax makes me an alcoholic than so be it.

The first month the boys were lucky to get bathed once a week.

I was too lazy to pre-wash socks and I think I permanently scarred their sensitive skin from the irritation it left.

I daydreamed of getting in my car and driving away more than I want to say.

My main goal has been to get them to sttn, more than any other cognitive or physical milestone!!

 

This is such a good idea!

OK my confessions:

1. Sometimes ignoring their cries for longer than usual as I´m too tired to deal with it or I´m on the internet! :blush:
2. Feeling happy when they go for naps - more so at bedtime as I get some "me" time.
3. Sticking the TV on as a form of distraction (only cartoons though) as I´m too tired to entertain them.
4. I love the attention we get for having B/G twins.
5. I often wonder how easy it must be to just have one baby.
6. I want to yell at singleton mothers when they say stuff like, "you´re so lucky as they must entertain each other all the time...I don´t get a minute´s peace with...." AGH! :angry:
7. Giving the same food for days at a time as I just can´t be bothered to change the menu.
8. Wishing I had my pre-twins body back.
9. Missing life with just DH.
10. Wondering how on earth I´m going to bring these two up correctly and realising the full extent of having twins!
11. I admire mothers with triplets or more - how do they do it?!
12. My conversation is only about the babies & I feel bad for the listener. I go on and on and on...
13. Leaving them at home with the carer instead of taking them out for a walk as I need to escape for an hour or so.
14. Getting frustrated with one or both babies when they are having a hard day. I shouted at DS once, when he was 4 months old, as I couldn´t cope with his constant crying. It turned out he was ill and I felt so awful that I was racked with guilt for days.

 

1. I use anything within reach as a burp cloth...including their blankets.
2. Sometimes I let them sit in the same sleeper for three days, unless they destroy it.
3. I constantly forget to put socks on them if they're not in sleepers, and then feel horrible when their feet are ice-cold.
4. Sometimes when they scream, I have to put them in the bouncers, go outside and smoke a cigarette to calm down before I can deal with them.
5. I let them cry it out when I can't soothe them to sleep
6. I don't always miss leaving them with my fiancee when I have to go to work.
7. I secretly love the fact that I can't leave the house with the kids alone and have to make people come over here to hang out instead.
8. When I do have friends over, I often let them deal with the kids while I pick up the house.
9. I love the attention we get for having twins....for now.
10. People who have one baby make me want to strangle them.
11. I have a tendency to say "If you don't knock that off, I'll put you upstairs!" as if they understand the concept of punishment, or like I actually would.


I'm SURE there's more. I have to think about it. Good idea!!

 

My girls do good to get a bath every week.

I loathe feeding them as I get bored, it takes forever and BK usually spits up something fierce.

I love the attention from having twins.

I would trade DH for a housekeeper.

I sometimes dress them in things that are a tiny bit too small, but are really cute.

I have a favorite child.

I can tune out their crying at bed time.

I am soooo looking forward to the next stage of "babyhood."

I want to strangle singleton parents who try to offer up advice or make it sound like I'm not doing something right.

I sometimes wish we had had the girls one at a time.

I haven't showered in 3 days and today's not looking good either.

I love my girls more than anything in this world, but this is HARD!!!

 

So glad I'm not alone...

I HATE my new and wonderful body (hint of sarcasm there) and frustrated that I can't/don't have time to work out. I thought having a baby would get me some big boobs and then I found out TWINS! Really big boobs, on their way .... nope, no such luck.

I catch myself wishing that I had my boys one at a time ... one baby would be a piece of cake!

After BF failed, I had a beer every night so I could relax and at least the few hours of sleep I would get would be decent. And sometimes I still do....as a matter of fact... :drinks:

I love the attention for having twins.

I miss my life before kids ... when/where's the me time? I wanted to go shopping today but couldn't because I had to work till 5 and then rush home to help with the feedings and then play, and now it's too late and I feel guilty for leaving DH at home by himself.

I wish they wouldn't get so bored so fast but I'm not so sure I'm looking forward to the mobile stage.

We play a lullabye cd every night that they've grown attached and sleep well to.

The swing is my best friend and has become a crutch. I dread the day that the boys reach 22 pounds and can no longer use it .... :cry:

I do love my life, my DH and my boys ... I wouldn't change it for the world - okay, maybe some slight tweaking! :winking:

 

Ohhh this is fun!

I'm new to this, but have oh-so-many things that come to mind.

*Would love to have the life DH and I had prior to parent hood.
*not to mention the sex life (TMI- sorry)
*I shower with them.
*I use anything for a burp cloth, even blankets, my clothes, whatever is closest.
*I don't use baby laundry soap.

Can't think of much more!

 

Hmm, things I don't confess to anyone else except my husband:

I yell at them to shut up. If I'm loud they stop what they're doing, look at me, then continue. I smile cause that's cute and forget that they were sooo whiny a minute ago.
I'm looking forward to going back to work in july.
I'm really proud of their clothes and think I dress them very well.
I hate getting parenting advice from my parents- they're outdated and from a different country. yes you used "fill in the blank" product for your kids when they were teething, I'm not. No, they're not cold. I love my parents though and they're incredibly generous.
I want my SIL to have twins. (she's doing IVF)
I'm too lazy to pump sometimes even when I know I'll get a good amount- I breastfeed.
I don't vacuum enough, I don't clean their toys and sometimes I don't even clean the highchair tray.

I'm sure there's more. I still think I'm a good parent though. :lol:

 

Omg I can't begin to tell u how much this post has made me feel better! Damn near everything on ur guys' list made me say to myself "yeah,done that..."
My own list to add:
1. Sometimes I'll feed them again just so they'll go to sleep already even tho I know they probably aren't hungry.
2. Sometimes I smoke a cigarette in the guest bathroom just so I can pee at the same time and kill 2 birds with one stone.
3. I miss eating hot food so anytime we are out I hit a drive thru and eat in the car while they are both asleep.
4. I resent my friends for having the freedom to shower whenever they want.
5. By the end of the day I've run out of things to say to them.
6. I put peach schnaupps in my morning oj prettyuch every day between months 2 and 4

 

I can relate to so many of the above, I love it!! We are so in this together.

Here's some more....

I've never washed their toys except when they were really sick and I just wanted the germs out.

I have about 30 books for them but never have the time to read to them.

I use receiving blankets to wipe/pick their noses.

Today at post natal yoga I let them eat cheerios/puffs off the mat because it kept them quiet and I could do corpse pose (relaxation after yoga).

Since my girls have learned how to sit but don't know how to get out of the sit position yet, whenever they are getting into too many things and I want them to sit still for a while, I make them sit so that I don't have to keep chasing them around the house.

I miss my pre-pregnancy tummy but I am too lazy to exercise to get it back.

I sometimes wonder if I wouldn't have gotten PPD if I just had one baby or if it wouldn't have been so bad.

 

Great thread!

1. I still have not had their pictures taken professionally or even by Walmart.
2. I have not let them explore the house, they are confined to the living room by gates and bins.
3. I change their bedding maybe once a week, maybe. And they only bathe once a week.
4. I laid them on their bellies starting at 3 months mostly because Laud's head was getting flat, but they also slept better.
5. I have not attended our church, except for Christmas, since they were born. Naptime takes precedence.
6. I have only taken them to their Dr. twice. Once at 10 days old and once at 8 months.
7. They have only been on one walk in the stroller mostly because of the weather, but also cause it's so much work to get everyone ready.
8. I find myself comparing them to each other and the other kids more than I would really like to.
9. Sometimes they are in the same outfit three days in a row.
10. I absolutely love having twins. And I find myself thinking...at least they are cute, because there are two of them and they are identical, what if they were ugly times two. (At least, I think they are cute).

Well that's all I can think of at the moment. Ahhh that feels good to get that out.

 

My confessions...
I cringe a little every time they get formula. I hate giving those companies my money.
Sometimes I just ignore them and let them wonder around because I'm too tired to engage them.
Like Pam, I compare them to each other way more than I should.
Many days I love it when they go to bed, and hate it when they wake up early.
I've caved in on many things that I believe just because I don't have the energy to argue with the DH.
My career is suffering tremendously now that they babies are here, and it is depressing me to watch my hard work go down the drain.
I worry a lot more about finances, trying to support two more people on way less money.

 

Ah, let's see - totally agree with a lot of what has already been said but here goes:

1. I actually don't mind that I work, I am lucky to have them at a great home daycare and I was going insane staying home when I was on maternity leave even though I thought I wanted to be a SAHM.

2. I have a ton of books and am an avid reader and truly believe in the importance of reading to them, but I just can't seem to find the time or inclination.

3. I HATE putting sheets on their crib mattresses so don't wash them nearly as often as I should

4. I worry constantly that they aren't hitting their milestones when they "should" and feel guilty that it is because two of them take a lot more time and I can't work with them

5. I also feel guilty that I haven't visited family or friends at all because I love that our strict schedule has allowed for 12 hours of sleep at night for 3 months and I am scared to death of messing it up (that is all changing this weekend though when we take an 8 hour trip)

6. I go upstairs and shower when they are taking their morning nap in their swings. In fact, I do a lot of things and just leave them in their swings, bouncers or playzone if they are happy and content

7. I have more than once forgotten to snap one of them in the carseat and didn't discover it until we got home. After leaving our Santa visit, after getting distracted and just completely forgetting to go back and do it, etc.

8. When we are going upstairs to do our bedtime feeding I have a checklist - sleep sack, check - size bigger diaper, check - bottle, check - cocktail for mom, CHECK.

9. I think having twins is harder than having a singleton and secretly think we are doing better with two than most of my friends with one

10. When they were younger and colicky I used the vacuum to quiet them down and yelled shut the */%# up at them more than once.

11. I love them more than anything and wouldn't change a thing but I hate what having them did to my body and get so depressed when someone says you look great because I always hear what they aren't saying - you look great for having had twins

12. Both of mine LOVE their jumperoo and will contentedly jump and play for an hour or more so I let them

13. I sometimes think about what it would be like to have only had one and the only thing I really miss is the ability to go and do things that are much harder with two - simple things like going out to dinner, going to the grocery store, going for a walk. I don't get out as much as I should because it is exhausting to even think about putting them both in carseats, putting them in the car, taking them out of the car, unfolding the stroller, snapping them in to the stroller, putting them back in the car, carrying them both in to the house or to our destination, etc. - it can be overwhelming

14. Their nails get WAY too long because I lose patience trying to keep their hands and feet still enough to cut their nails

15. And finally, I love, love, love having twins and wouldn't have it any other way. I can't imagine life without ds or dd and think I am so lucky to have had them both at once. That being said, I am now obsessed with multiple moms with more than twins because I have no idea how they do it!

 

Ahhhh man the days of twinfants. They are only so young for so little.
Confessions of a sleep deprived momma
-My 5 yr old does so much - get the phone, shut the door, water please, entertain please. He can make them happy with one face.
-The kitchen is ussually a disaster I can't keep up.
-I miss courtship between Dh and I - nows there is no fun time
- I shut the door to the bathroom and let them cry, when you gotta go you gotta go
- me shower ha what is that. seriously glad we don't go anywhere because trust me I must smell
- when S*%$ hits the fan i put them in the car seats and go for a drive anywhere

alas i know there is more but this helps.
best wishes all

 

(There are some really negative thoughts/feelings that I could list here, but that's probably the PPD talking and I'll resist.)

- I prefer holding the lighter baby.

- I let them sleep on their stomach sometimes, though DH gets upset.

- They really have to cry for a while at night to convince me that they mean it. (They're noisy sleepers.)

- I get annoyed at singleton parents that talk about how wonderful this time period is and how it's going by too fast.

- I think they're a little funny-looking.

- I don't wash or sanitize my hands enough.

- I wear milk-dribbled clothes.

 

lol this is so funny,
o.k my confessions

i too have forgotten to strap them into the car on a short journey.

i drank jack daniels and coke in the evening long before i stopped b/fing

i turn the monitor down if they are crying and its not time

i rinse bottles with a little water

im really glad im back at work

i still very rarely dress them in anything else apart from babygro's and they need to be pretty dirty before i change them.



sure there are lots more but i guess my first two make up for it!

we should have a top ten!!! one's that made me laugh out loud; the wiped up milk (classic!) picking up the lighter baby (i do that!) schnapps and o.j for breakfast (i wish i did that). blanking out the smelly nappy pre nap.... soooo funny.

we are all amazing mums but im so glad we are also human.

 

QUOTE(larasboys @ Apr 7 2009, 08:56 AM) [snapback]1262534[/snapback]
i drank jack daniels and coke in the evening long before i stopped b/fing


LOL! This is my cocktail of choice and I have it more evenings than not! I also had them when I was b/fing but would pump and dump - probably part of the reason I stopped b/fing - I was constantly dumping anything that I got after five!

 

Oh wow...this is a great idea. My girls have only been home from the NICU for 2 weeks and I already have a few...

I don't change their outfits unless absolutely necessary.
Everytime my husband changes a diaper I say a quick prayer I don't have to fix it or have an outfit change.
I thought I was going to breastfeed, but now I am pumping and doing formula.
I don't wake up when they cry at night, I sleep right through it.
I feel guilty for spending more time with one versus the other.
My dad sent me to bed the other night to get some sleep and said he would stay up with one of them. Yeah, my husband I did it with my dad taking care of my crying child in the living room.
My mother is here right now "helping" and I'm trying very hard not to yell or hurt her because she is driving me crazy!

Give it a few more days and I'm sure I will think of some more...

 

I live for the times when they nap at the same time.

I, too, have told them to shut up, to which they respond with a big grin (because I still say it in a nice way).

I do most typing one-handed while holding a baby.

I have changed a diaper with one hand while giving a bottle with the other.

My girls wear their "I love Mommy" onesies about 4 times as much as their "I love Daddy" onesies (and I usually only put them in those if I want to soften up DH to ask him for something).

Rather than changing their sheets, I sometimes just flip the mattress long ways since they only take up half of it.

I've given them Tylenol when they probably didn't need it, but wanted them to stop crying and go to sleep.

i think I would be twice the mom if I had half the kids.

 

Fun, fun, I like this thread!

I treat them differently. I justify it by telling myself they are two different babies, but I feel guilty when I am letting DS CIO and still soothing DD because I don't feel she's ready yet.

I don't try BFing DD as much anymore because I am tired of the rejection.

I can't have sex with DH anymore unless we are in bed with the lights off. I used to be all sorts of adventurous, and most of our pre-baby nookie was not in our bedroom, but I haven't come to terms with my body again yet.

I didn't figure out that I had PPD until they were 5 months old and before I figured it out, I would yell at them when they were just tiny and I spent half of my time wishing I didn't have them.

I let out the straps on their carseats when they have their jackets on and sometimes I don't tighten them back up when I put them in without their jackets.

I have not always waited 4 days in between foods when we started solids.

DD is still sleeping in her bouncy and they are almost 10 months old.

I prop DD's bottle at night if she wakes up rather than picking her up and feeding her.

I just barely weaned DS from the swaddle at almost 10 months and DD is still swaddled.

I lick my finger and groom them rather than walking five steps to get a washcloth. (DH hates this!)

I let them play with all sorts of non-toys around the house. Cell phone cords, phones, remotes, extension cords (unplugged of course!), the strings that raise the blinds, the vaccuum cleaner, the broom, their diaper bag, my purse, my pump, the dishes, etc , etc. (DH hates this also!)

I don't take them in for regular check-ups with their pedi. We lost our insurance when they were 4 months old and since then I only take them in when absolutely necessary.

Hmm, I don't know if I feel better or worse now :blush:

 

OMG I love this!!!! I feel bad about alot of things, but you guys just made me feel less bad!!! Thanks!

- Sometimes on sundays am so exausted from being a single mom to twins and full time worker, I let them cry in their cribs until I can't take it anymore, give them a bottle in their cribs and go back to bed. Once I didn't get them out of their cribs until 4:30 in the afternoon. :woah:

- I drink at home ALOT in the evenings after they go to bed...usually just wine but sometimes margaritas. I have learned to tune them out quite well

- I look forward to work after a long weekend just for the break lol.

- My boys have gone over a week with out a bath at times ( shhh don't tell my mom!) :hush:

- I have sometimes just given them a bottle and cherrieo's instead of dinner because I am too
tired when I get home from work ( I feel horrible for doing this)

- They can wear the same jammies for 2 days, all day long or until they dirty them.

-When they were 3-5 months when they would have their evening spells ( uncontrolled crying) I would just cry my eyes out with them, yelling at them to shut the he**) up. I feel bad looking back but I was on the edge of lossing it ( I had bad pp depression)

-I have sent them to daycare in the mornings with out changing their diapers if I was running late

-I have wanted to drop them off at their dad's house (whom walked out of our lives when I was 4 months pregnant and hasnt been back) and run....faaaarrr away!

-I have often had thought of just having one kid and how much more easier life would be

-They boys slept in their bouncer until they were 6 months old every night ( DS had to go to physical therapy for it when he was 8 months old for torta collis), and I feel horrible for it now)

- I have left them in the car to run in and grab milk...I know I know big no no! It's too hard to lugg 2 kids in and grab 2 gallons of milk...I of course lock the doors!!

- thier crib sheets don't get changed unless they dirty them up!

GEEEZE If I didn't know any better I would say I ws a horrible mom by the sounds of it....but the boys and I have made it over a year! to talk about it! lol

 

Two more confessions --

I have the TV on a lot - I love sports and animal shows. I try to put music on sometimes, but it's dull.

My level of acceptable wetness/stain/dirtiness of clothing seems to be deteriorating daily.

 

QUOTE(lovelylily @ Apr 7 2009, 11:56 AM) [snapback]1263047[/snapback]
I can't have sex with DH anymore unless we are in bed with the lights off. I used to be all sorts of adventurous, and most of our pre-baby nookie was not in our bedroom, but I haven't come to terms with my body again yet.


Me too! I feel bad for DH, but he understands that I'm having a hard time with my pp body. He does remind me that sex burns calories...

I left butternut squash on the stove to 'cook' for 1.5 hours and ruined our really expensive cookware...the whole time thinking my 'stupid' neighbors were burning something!

I have had more things boil over on the stove in the last 2-3 months, than in my entire life

I love them equally, but have a favorite child (there, I said it...)

They have both tasted their own snot b/c I was on the computer...(and my pet peeve is parents who let buggies run down their childs face)

Sometimes they have the same onsie on for 2+ days

Their sheets do not get changed unless someone is coming over, or they are really bad

I have given them a bottle in bed (after they have eaten) b/c I am so tired and want them to nap/sleep

A few weeks pp, I was in tears about my body, and DH said, 'well, aren't they worth it?'...I paused before I answered


*I am so thankful for my wonderful family, and that everyone is healthy - I am also thankful for this group that helps keep my sanity and reminds me that I am not alone in my frustrations, doubts, mistakes, etc*

eta: one more - when they were really young, I would jump at the first sign of hunger to grab the one without reflux so my dh could deal with all the spit ups...

eta again...ok,these just keep coming to me: I manage to take a shower every day, but shave my legs maybe twice a month! :blink:

 

OMG! This is what I needed soo bad to hear! Made me feel so much better!
My twins are 3 mo old now and every day I hope it will get better. I guess I just have to face it.. this is the way its gonna be from now on...
I concured with almost all the posts here! Yuppy im not alone in this.. I guess we all do what we can to survive this madness

1. Propping bottles, yes. Sometimes i dont take them out of their mouths until im sure they are asleep (in know.. bad habbits, teeth problems etc.)
2. not changing their diapers through the night affraid they will wake up and not go to back to sleep (I have one size bigger diapers for the night) We do want we can no?
3. Nightly cocktails/wine/beer whatever is there in the fridge...
4. Not ever getting pregnant again!
5. Hating people asking if thei are "natural" or if they are identical, even though one is dressed in blue and another in pink!
6. Yelling S the Hell out at 5 am when the little guy starts howling.. feeling horrible after (offcourse) bad mommy
7. being happy to go to work just to get a break!
8. Love the boppy pillows and snugglies with velcro so they cannot get thei hands out!
9. Making a big bottle for the night so that I dont have to make new ones at night. (it happend when I couldn remeber how many scoops I put in wich bottle
10. I have a favorite (so does DH.. different ones thank god!)
11. My little girl scares me (so much like me!)

They are more.. just cant remember now... just doing whatever we can to survive (i have two very healthy little "bundles of trouble" that I love deeply. Cannot imagine life without them.

 

I was so excited the first two weeks they were home that I tried not to sleep at all and just watch them sleep. After two weeks, I needed to stop as I was dead tired!

I was so excited when they began playing together more, so I could get some more Internet time .

When they began eating solids, I gave them the easiest foods I could think of and still do.

I definitely have a beer after they go to bed some nights as I'm unwinding.

They play with non toys too, I will open a room that I know is safe for them and let them have fun! I've done this for quite some time now .