About to deliver and really really emotional

I am 37 weeks and 3 days and have been pretty much crying off and on for the past 2 days. I have no idea what is wrong with me. I have had a fabulous pregnancy and I have nothing to be sad about. These are our first babies and DH has been so fabulous and I love him soooo much and I cannot figure out what is up with me. We are scheduled for a c-section on May 29th and it is really almost here.

I have been so elated the entire pregnancy that I am really surprised I am feeling this way. It isn't like I am depressed where I don't want to get out of bed or eat or do my normal things, I just cry about everything. I sobbed on Sunday because we tried to take our dog to the dog park and they wouldn't let us in because it was "member" time, I actually cried about that all day yesterday. I cried everytime I looked at my dog whom, I am convinced is going to be miserable when the babies come. I cry when I think about how much I love DH. I cry when I think about how much I love my life and how lucky I am. I cry when I think about how excited I am to meet my babies.

Has anyone else experienced this towards the end of their pregnancies. Does this mean I am on the quick road towards ppd? I mean, I think I have been walking around on Cloud 9 this whole time and I have forgotten to be scared and now I am horrified and it is like, too late. Does that make any sense? I don't really want talk to DH about it because he really isn't into "worrying" and is totally happy with whatever is going on right then because it is what it is. I admire this about him as I usually end up worrying about things for nothing and everything works out great and if I would just relax and take it as it comes I wouldn't waste time analyzing. I mean, he knows I am feeling this way and listens to me and comforts me about it, but he is so excited about the babies and just soooo laid back that I am careful not to completely vent on him. I also know that he is right, it will be okay because it has to be okay and we will all adjust and love eachother just as much but just with more people to love and fit into our little world.

Okay so I guess what I am saying is the babies are coming, like now, and I just remembered to be scared. I am a pile of tears and everything makes me cry. I saw a commercial for a drug used to treat Parkinson's Disease and started crying because all I could think of is how my heart would break if DH ever got sick or something happened to our dog. It actually hurts my heart to think about having two more little people in this world that I will love that much. Help, am I losing it?

Thanks,
Amy

 

You are not losing it! You, of course, are going to be overwhelmed by your emotions....it's completely normal. I cried probably the whole last month of my pregnancy about everything too. I bet a lot of the other moms here did as well. You are about to get the greatest gift ever when your twins come and you will probably still be a little emotional for a while but it's so worth it. I still tear up when I look at my beautiful babies, but I never experienced any PPD. I would just take these last couple of days and relax. Spend as much time as you can with your DH. I look forward to seeing you in the FY forum. Good Luck to you. I wish you a great delivery and big healthy twins!

 

ah hormones aren't they great? you are not losing it, it is pretty normal. i had days when all i did was cry. still do, but not b/c i am depressed, just overwhelmed sometimes. i cried when i delivered my DS and DD and I tear up when i watch a picture slideshow i made of them.
commercials, tv shows i can get all teary too.
it will eentually get better though.
good luck with your delivery! will look for your birth story soon.
:hug99:
Alyson

 

Hey Amy,
I'm close too and have been crying all the time for no real reason either. I"m completely blaming it on hormones. Maybe we're just getting it out now so we won't be too bad after?
I'm glad to not feel alone about it, though - thanks for your post.
Aimee

 

Your are so normal, don't worry. Hormones are crazy things, plus you have this looming "date" hanging over your head. I've gone into labor twice before on my own, and I swear it's easier that way; you don't really get the chance to contemplate how life is about to change.

But I promise you are not on your way to PPD. I always had my emotional days after the babies, especially days 4-5 after delivery. I could just cry all day. Hang in there, you will feel better. You just don't know the power of hormones; honestly, I'm a sympathetic person, but I'm laughing on the inside about your dog anxieties! You will feel more like yourself soon, and probably before the babies come. But, just so you know, I am a much more emotional, loving person since I've had children. In general, I can cry much easier and I worry more about something happening to DH and of course I worry about my children. But I feel like that is just the flip side of having so much love in your heart for your family.

Oh, and you won't "love each other just as much"; you'll love each other much more and much deeper. You are going to be in love with your DH "the man" as you always have; but you are about to fall in love with DH "the father", someone you have never met before.

Hang in there,
Jen

 

Aww, hon! I am teary just reading your post. Remember your hormones are all out of whack right now.....and it's absolutely normal to feel this way. You will have many days like this after the babies come, too -- my mom left when my daughter was 3 weeks old, and even though she had been driving me crazy, I totally lost it and cried all day, because I couldn't fathom that my mom wasn't going to see my little girl every day as she grew up. (I got over it, LOL.)

As long as you're not actually feeling depressed -- if you're feeling super happy, emotional, scared, the gamut of emotions -- it's all good.

Just wanted to say that I love reading your posts, because I often feel the same way -- I'm so incredibly thankful for my wonderful DH, and so grateful for my life and my daughter, and now these two new munchkins coming.....well, life is just GOOD! I know it's your first time at parenthood, but I promise you it's about to get better!

 

i agree with pp about the hormones - they will make you feel crazy - i've cried during baseball games, american idol, the sopranos and commercials to name a few....

 

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Oh, and you won't "love each other just as much"; you'll love each other much more and much deeper. You are going to be in love with your DH "the man" as you always have; but you are about to fall in love with DH "the father", someone you have never met before.

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i agree with pp about the hormones - they will make you feel crazy - i've cried during baseball games, american idol, the sopranos and commercials to name a few....



I'm not even that far along and I cried during the Sopranos last night too. Or if a sad song or a really romantic, sweet song comes on the radio, I cry! I toured the hospital where I'll be delivering on Saturday, and being in the hospital in a room where my babies will be born made me cry too! It was a big group of pregnant women and there I am, barely showing and the only one crying!

 

I am starting to have crying episodes. I had one last night over the stupidest thing. I am not much of a cryer either. I think my harmones are just in overdrive also. Usually when I am not pregnant, nothing can hurt my feelings but now the slightest thing hurts my feelings so badly. It will go away though after you deliver. Good luck.

 

This is my first pregnancy as well and i am 19 weeks, and i am an emotional wreck. I have good days and really bad days...the other day my cat peed on a $3 pair of sandles and it was the end of the world...my DH is supportive and just chuckles about this and i realize that the hormones are going nuts again

Hang in there, I am sure when you hold those cute little angels that it will all be worth it :hug99:

 

You gotta love those hormones!! I remember the dog knocking over my blackcurrant juice on my cream curtains and crying like it was the end of the world!! Big :hug99: to you x

 

Completely normal! Being emotional is ok! This is such and exciting time, full of happiness and anxiety! :hug99: