34.3 Weeks 2-3cms dialated...the end is near!

Hi all..
Ive mostly been hanging around in the bedrest forum (a godsend BTW),and have been off BR for 2 weeks.
I went to L&D the other nite for too many hourly contractions( I have an IHUM where I have to monitor twice daily,Im allowed 6 contractions an hour,and I had 8 so I had to report),and they checked me I was a "good 2 maybe 3",they gave me terb,and sent me home.Pretty uneventful,except my husbands not here,and I knw that many of you are in my spot with a husband away....I just never thought it would be so hard.I have a wonderful doula,but I dont like to bother her untill its "the real deal",and now that both my boys are vertex Ive decided on a vaginal birth,so who knows when they will arrive.It will take my husband a good 24 hrs to get here ,and we are having a planned induction date,so he can get here on time,but what if they come early? Dont get me wrong I LOVE my doula,but its not the same as having your husband.

Plus my MIL was here helping me and now shes decided to go to NY for work so she will be gone the 3-12.I worry mostly that my other children will have to come to the hospital with me in the event my water breaks or something.My older son is here for college,and I think Ill ask him to come stay untill my MIL gets back(Im so mad she even took the job that I hope she misses it now ),but thats not a sure thing...he has a job too.

anyhoo.Im venting...I just see so many of you that are in my position,and you seem so strong.I cried like a baby the other nite at the hospital without him.

Orlando is my husbands hometown,and I wouldnt be in this position if I were at the beach where Im from because I have friends and family there.

My husband is comming home tommorrow for a visit,but has to return tommorrow nite...which is terrible but at least I get to see him.Maybe Ill get lucky and go into labor when I see him.

Pregnancy is hard but its twice as hard when your alone,and having an absent spouse overrshadows the joy your supposed to be feeling.I just keep trying to stay busy with my girls..that helps a ton!

Im so lucky to have made it this far in my pregnancy that its a little selfish of me to be venting on such a thing,and many of you have much larger issues at hand ...

10 weeks ago they thought for sure my boys were on the way,but with strict bedrest,and a great home health care team,we were able to keep them cooking this long so I need to focus on that really.

Still I miss my husband.LOL

Thanks for letting me vent...J

 

I know how you feel! Nobody ever mentions that pregnancy is scary (though I'm sure that's the hormones talking). My husband has had a few overnight trips during this pregnancy and every time I get nervous that that'll be the night. Hopefully your son can stay with you while your MIL is gone. Hang in there!! :hug:

 

You can vent anytime. Hang in there. :hug:

 

OH I sooo understand. I'm right at 35 weeks and I cry and cry late at night, mostly out of exhaustion & being so scared, of doubting wether I'll be able to handle this!!!! And feeling so alone throughout it.

Knowing what I can handle has changed daily- that is not normal for me or from my experience in first pregnancy. I have had to frame my answers to everyones questions about how I'm going to do it. Doing it- is taking care of my family. In a normal pregnancy I wouldn't of found so much confusion and inner turmoil. Now, I have no idea what to answer, how to answer that simple question, "How can I help?"

I hate asking for helping, needing help, and then having to find it. Which one I hate the most I don't know. This has been one intense life lesson and I'm not sure I've passed...

Not too long ago I flipped out, screaming I hate you (at the top of my lungs) into the cell phone at my DH because he was starting to get snippy with me- here I am all too aware of what I say to him and how I phrase things and he wasn't anymore. If you knew me, you'd never think I could do such a thing. But I can't go to the store without him- why? I'm afraid I'll fall or won't be able to walk another step or have to take a break. MORE TERRIFYING than anything I've come to realize how much I NEED HIM, and if you haven't guess yet- I hate that too.

Two years ago we moved back to my hometown for lots of reasons. One of them being I needed my family and now with twin girls coming I'm so so glad we did (no way we'd foresee that one). There's no way I'd be able to do this without my mother, auntie, sister, nieces, and brother- I've hardly been able to do it WITH them. (That's gonna keep me up tonight just thinking about that realization).

I'm not the brightest woman when it comes to knowing my limits, realizing my fears. But I'm starting to slowly ask for help, say ok when I don't get it, and when I do- thank GOD and the Angel who gave it with a whole new kinda appreciation!!!!

I wish I could help you. I do.
We'll get through this, some freaking way how!

 

Vent away jennifer!!! :hug:

I can totally understand how frustrating and scary it is & to be far away from your DH has to be hard.
I hope that things go according to plan & that he is able to be there for you & the babies.

Hang in there & you are doing a GREAT job :hug:

 

Hang in there!! :hug: I can't imagine doing it without my hubby and I am still a mess lately. I have been crying off and on a lot today cuz I am just done, I am so worn out and to know that there's another 6 weeks before I would be induced just makes me want to scream. It is hard, harder than anyone who hasn't been through this can imagine and we all deserve to vent. I know myself reading about all the pre term babies who have recently been born I feel guilty of my whining and crying and wanting mine out but we can't help those feelings when the physical and emotional pain become too much. Just take it one day at a time, one hour at a time if you have to. Maybe try and have a nice bubble bath and read a book or something for just a little while. Again :hug: I hope your DH will be there for the birth and that it all works out as planned.

 

((((HUGS)))) and never feel sorry for venting! To tell you the truth, I DO enjoy reading people's vent. It not only makes me forget how miserable hospitalized bedrest is, but it helps me feel less sorry for myself. It helps me to see that if I weren't having this issue, I would have nother. There is NO such thing as an 'easy;l pregnancy. I hope your twins stay put until your MIL comes back!

 

Thanks all!
Im going to call my son today,I HATE asking for help,but at 3cms I feel I had better.Plus the boys have a growth scan with my peri 2morrow,and I cant bring my baby with me to the appointment.I wont miss my appointment either my boys are mo/di so I worry at every scan.

Still I feel bad he should be doing things like frat parties,and getting ready for classes...not taking care of his mom....allthough he wont see it that way,hes a wonderful young man,my greatest acheivment in life thus far.

Im also a little stunned too that my MIL took work this week.When my son gets married his poor wife will hate me when shes pregnant ill never leave her side,certainly not with twins on board.Its not like she need to work either...I could understand then,but for her work is optional.

my husband will be here in an hour,and Ill be better today,but later Ill be sad again.I have some chores to do still.Im sewing the boys some extra small diapers,as a part of my new marketing for my cloth diaper company,so if Im busy and productive Im ok.

BUT....Maybe ill go into labor LOL,still holding out hope on that one hehe.Then My DH wont have to go back tonite he can stay with me.

Hes only here 72 hrs after their birth,so Ill be comming home alone too.We have hired a post partum doula for that time frame,which is good.

He will be home for good the first week of October...so not too much longer,and life will be back to normal,well as normal as it will get with 4 kids.

Thank you for all the support!

HUGS J

 

I'm right there with you ladies. My husband asks me what's wrong like every hour. I want to scream at him- I can't reach the floor easily. It hurts to get up. I itch everywhere. I'm tired, yet uncomfortable. I try to tell him these things, then he says, "You look sad. What's wrong?" Again, I want to scream. For me, it's hardest to ask for help and by the end of the day (after about 7); I'm done in for the day.

One thing that amazes me: You ladies who have older kids. I think you are amazing!!! Here I am, so uncomfortable, yet I only tend to my needs (just barely). How you work it with other kids at home-it's inspiring.

Hey, orlandojennifer: You don't really want your son at frat parties, right? This is something that he can do that's productive that doesn't kill brain cells! :drinks:

Much love to every twin mommy out there who has a hard time walking through the parking lot to get to the grocery store,

Michelle

 

Glad to hear you're going to call your son!!! I hope it looks brighter for you soon.

I just found out from my mother the other day that she won't be able to come out to help us with the babies until sometime in September. She lives in Colorado and had been planning to come out here for 4-6 weeks once we brought the babies home. She had shoulder surgery about 4 months ago and was doing great until she did her famous "wasp dance" and tore her rotator cuff about 2-3 weeks ago. Now she's scheduled for surgery again on Tuesday and will be one-armed for 6 weeks. I am slightly panicky at the thought of having no live-in help like I'd expected. I know I'm lucky that I was going to have that at all, but still... My MIL and two SIL (and their high school-aged daughters) all live on the farm, so there will be no shortage of help, but I have to say, "I want my mom!" She'll come as soon as she's out of her sling and stay for 4-6 weeks.

Let us know how your next appointment goes, Jennifer! I'm right about the same stage as you.

 

OH NO....you poor thing(well your mom too)What a horrible time for her to have this issue!Im glad you have help though...you should be right ahead of me have you had a cervical check yet?Your boys are mo-di right?I bet we go the same week...finger crossed ! Are you ready?

 

No offense Michelle,but Id cut my leg off just to have my husband here to bug the crap out of me! LOL
Its my husbands absence that has me in this pickle.

And yes I feel that my son should be enjoying his youth,and not worrying about my problems.Im certainly not his responsibility...good thing he has extra brain cells to spare ,hes worked hard in his life ,and deserves to have fun in college,plus not all frat boys kill braincells...thats a sterotype!...no offense

 

No cervical check recently. I have an OB appointment tomorrow morning - maybe then? Am I ready???? Are we ever "ready???" I dunno - I don't think I have much choice in the matter, but I have to say I am very much looking forward to getting my body back. How about you?

Yes - my boys are mo-di.